"Bookends"

Been in the mood for reading lately. "Bookends" is the book i'm reading now.
Quite an interesting story (not gonna blabber it here though).
Jadi mikir....i really want to have a gay friend. Sebenernya uda lama banget si pengen punya temen gay (cowo tapi ye...).
There's one character, Simon Nelson. They call him Si.He has a very soft side or should I call a very 'girly' side? He's very sensitive. Very girlie. Very cute. He has a best friend, Catherine Warner or Cath.
One scene, he got dumped by his boyfriend. And it got me a bit emotional. He cried, I put myself as Cath. She tried to comfot him.
I think a gay man is much more wicked than a girl.
Anjrot!kok jadi adore gay man seh??wth?

Anyway, found a nice sentece in the novel.
"....but sometimes, when you're trying to make a relationship with someone new, you have to think about somebody other than yourself." (Bookends, pg. 209, 2002). I nod along. It's true meeehh......been trying to be like that, I know it can be like hell sometime, espcially when you're not in the mood of socializing. To put that 'not so real' smile. To squeeze your ego.
I really want to have this relationship and this friendship go along together. But seems so DAMN hard!!why why why WHY???
If it seems that I don't even try, believe me....I AM tryinggggg!!!still tryiiinnngg!!!
Sometimes I got tired. So I just paused for a moment or two.

du...du...du...du....

lagi sebel ama tu cowo!IKH!!insensitive!

ahhh never mind lahh....
laperrrr!!!
Dimana ya cari temen gay?