learn on how to let go of everything

i know i'm suppose to be pasrah...
to let go....
and not try to have control over everything...
especially this thing....

you have no idea how hard i tried...
you have no idea how i wish i took things easily....

im so freakin out....
stressed out!
my body show signs to stop stressing and relax
but my head just cant accept it!

argh!
i hate it!!!!!

please help me....help me....help me...

but deep down, i know i'm gonna be alrgiht...
gak ada problem....i know...
cuma this suara hati belom sekuat pikiran in my head....

waaaagggh!!!

*praying buat besok ke dokter*

aduh.....

stress deh....
this is a tough case deh....i really hate it!
man!
udah banyak yg dikasih, cuma blm ada yg pas gitu...
arg!

kesel deh hari ini....

i just wanna gooooo

siang hari di kantor....

di kantor...
gak mood...
mau telpon...
di ruang meeting aja...
sepi soalnya...

sigh...
kenapa ya?

looking forward to this weekend...
smoga ga ada perubahan rencana
coz im tired disini...i need udara segeerr...

The Greatest Gift of All - Jim Brickman & Michelle Wright

It's not the flowers, wrapped in fancy paper

It's not the ring, I wear around my finger

There's nothing in all the world I need

When I have you here beside me, here beside me

So you could give me wings to fly

And catch me if I fall

Or pull the stars down from the sky

So I could wish on them allBut I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

In your arms, I found a strength inside me

And in your eyes, there's a light to guide me

I would be lost without you

And all that my heart could ever want has come true

So you could give me wings to fly
And catch me if I fall
Or pull the stars down from the sky
So I could wish on them allBut I couldn't ask for more
'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

You could offer me the sun, the moon

And I would still believe

You gave me everything

When you gave your heart to me

But I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

You could give me wings to fly

And catch me if I fallOr pull the stars down from the sky

So I could wish on them all

But I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

love, love, love this song....beautiful lyrics!

i think....

i'm in that moment again!
feel so bored with my job.
otak udah ga bisa diajak kerjasama lagi...
ga bisa mikir even udah dipaksa.

bosen...seriously...so boring....

gak nemuin semangat untuk kerja lagi...
kenapa ya?

feeling guilty....real bad!

oh well, better start working my ass

sleepy head!

after lunch....
ngantuk banget...
beler berat...
otak mampet banget....
parah nih..
baru jem 1 lagi...
5 long hours to go....

today's event

satu dari serangkaian event udah lewat...
lega....
fiuh...
and i can say it went well. walo ada little incident, still great!
so....great!

lalalala.....

after sometime....

after sometime....
....watching
....noticing
....looking
....analyzing
....thinking

and then I decided
....those whom I can be friend with
....those whom I can trust
....those whom I can lean on
....those whom will landed a kick on my ass

These are the things in my head at 1.59pm

mau kentut

gak sabar mau pulang, mau makan bakut....how i love bakut

now udah mau poo and just realized i haven't poo today.

thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking.....

can't wait to go home and playing my games!

freakin out

Okay,
I have a reason why I'm freakin out....
It's because wherever I go, I heard people getting cancer...
dammit!
It's freaking me out!

stress banget deh....hik...

'You need a miracle tomorrow'

You never know when God is going to bless you!!
Good things happen when you least expect them to!!!!!!!!

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day,

I thank You for my being able to see

and to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are

a forgiving God and

an understanding God.

You have done so much for me

and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything

I have done, said or thought

that was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe

from all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day

with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day

to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind

that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper

over things I have no control over.

And give me the best response

when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,

You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be

a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...

Keep me uplifted that I may have

words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost

and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged

and misunderstood.

I pray for those who

don't know You intimately.

I pray for those that don't believe.

But I thank You that I believe

that God changes people and

God changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers.

For each and every family member

in their households.

I pray for peace, love and joy

in their homes; that they are out of debt

and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this

knows there is no problem, circumstance,

or situation greater than God.

Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.

I pray that these words be received

into the hearts of every eye that sees it in Jesus' name.

Amen!

Just repeat this phrase and see how God moves!! God I love you and I need you, come into my heart, please. Know that you are already blessed by the person who sent this to you.