Christmas Eve

Don't feel like spreading the 'Merry Christmas' greetings to anybody.

Not sure why.

In fact, don't feel like going to the Church and celebrate Christmas.

What's wrong with me ya?

Oh, well...

shaved ice falling from the sky

checked out a friend pictures whom still live in Milwaukee.

snowing already.

i miss snow...i really do.

i miss watching the first snow falling down to the earth.

i miss touching the snow with my hands (and sometimes tongue).

i miss the warm feeling of looking at the city covered with snow.

snow....

hiks....

Everybody has a Monday blues, right?

Note: Wrote this on Monday, 20 Dec 2010

Dari melek mata udah kesel….thus, no good mood today. Plus, it’s Monday.

Crap crap crap craaaaapppp!!!!!!

Pagi pagi listrik mati di rumah…kaga bisa mandi. Ruined my mood already. Karena bangun ga enak, pala jadi puyeng…mongki! Kalo pala puyeng gua ga bisa kerja. Truuuss like its not enough yet, internet di kantor mati lagi….reseee….

Gua cuma pengen mandi kok….keramas…clean my hair and body…emang sih ga keringetan, tapi kan bawaannya kaga enak. Lengket for some reason!

Keseeeelll!

Ga ngerti kenapa mati lampu mulu…monyet! Udah 4 kali nih….hari sabtu 2 kali, tapi Cuma sebentar aja. Minggu pagi, electricity went off for 2 hrs. trus tadi pagi dari jem 8 pagi…maunya apaan sih?

Gua ga peduli orang mo kate gua manja ato apa lah…sebodo amat! This is how I feel…so yeah, I have every right to say whatever I want! I cant do this, I cant function well today! Gggrrrr…..

Why everything seems so berantakan? Why I have no control over all things?

Lately mikir, kalo gua ini orangnya yg harus punya control over stuff. Harus punya!kalo ga bisa stress sendiri. Like now. Like lately. Stress sampe rambut rontok! Bikin gua makin stress aje. Udah rambut tipis, eeehh die rontok….makin streeeesssss…..

selama I live in bali, I barely ngerasa relax. Stress! Really stress! Emang kita jalan2 ke pantai lah, ke ubud lah, ato watch tv lah….but deep down I know gua stress. Rumah yg ga layak tinggal (and im freaking glad that we are moving out soon!!!), taman yg kotor, daon pohon jepun yang rontok mulu bikin gua keki. Rumah yang selalu kotor, baru sapu pel, 10 menit kemudian udah kotor lagi. Belom lagi lemari yg bener2 gua benci! Dari depan gede, tapi dalemnya kecil dan nyebelin. Trus the house smelly. I hate it! Dapur yg udah kaya gudang. Udara dalem rumah yg gua benci! Suasana rumah yg gua benci!

I can say, bali is great for vacation, but NOT for living!

Gua ga pernah fully setuju move to bali kok. He never really asked me. He decided and then he told me we are moving to bali. I have been trying to look at the silver lining. But I haven’t found it yet. Things happened here malah bikin gua makin sebel pindah ke sini. I miss Jakarta, I miss kelapa gading. As much as I hate traffic jam yang rese, I prefer to live in Jakarta. Coz I have everything I needed in Jakarta.

Yes, I am complaining now!!! Biiiiaaarrr…..kesel, kesel, kesel….

3 days til Christmas....

okay, first of all, this post has nothing to do with Christmas countdown....

I just feel like yapping here since I have no mood to talk to a person....

This morning, I found out that somebody hit my car. I dont know how it happened, when it happened.

But cant deny the anger (yep, ANGER) is here!

Been wondering why everything seems falling apart. I lost my grip! hiks....

I cant even handle tiny little thing, like remembering my car insurance due date. heeek!

blah to the blaaaahhh

there's no such thing as Christmas in Bali

Yep! you are reading it right!

No Christmas here.

No decent decorations.

No red nor green color.

No Christmas tree.

(almost) nothing!

haih!

On other note, I think I'm going to skip my yoga (agaaain!!)

A bit guilty, but the mood hasn't been good today.

A new year resolution: Do yoga at least twice a week starting January 2011.

Not sure what am I going to do this weekend. Only have 1 more day left.

I need a good closure, I really do. :(

oh! I want a good book and a quiet night.

!!!!!

PALING GAK SUKA DITUNJUK-TUNJUK DI DEPAN MUKA!

emang menurut lu, gua apaan?

emang menurut lu, lu siapa?

mongki!

i want something more

I want something more.

Other than spending the time together.

I want us to listen and to share.

It's not only about having fun.

It's not only about watching TV together.

I want something more.

Something special, something meaningful.

I want him to listen without judging.

I don't need any comments from him.

I just want his ear and heart.

I want something more.....

mi casa no es su casa

Few people knew I'm a very private person when it came to my properties; i.e: room, house, car, clothes, shoes etc. Basically, everything I owned. You get the picture. Hence, I can be really fussy when one come near (barely touch) my properties without me inviting or offering him/her.

Call me possessive or whatever, like I care.

Saying that, I am well aware sometimes my very-private-behavior can be a pain in my ass.

I have place for everything (read: EVERYTHING), really!

A small example: My desk. I organized my desk with a purpose, which to ensure that I, the owner of the desk, can get everything I need without have to hustle and bustle.

I don't mind they borrowing my stuff, but please keep in mind to be responsible and return it exactly where you get it. Why is it so hard? Am I asking too much?

Let's talk about my car.

Hell, I love my car. I took a damn good care of my car. It's clean (not always, but I try my best to keep it as clean as I can). It's tidy. It's organized. It smells good.

Few rules in my car:

No food allowed (especially something oily, soup of any kind), therefore no eating (or munching) in my car. Hard candy is tolerable, chocolate bar and ice cream are not. Food smells the car, the whole car. It's disturbing!

No colored drinks allowed (as much as I love coffee, I NEVER drink coffee in my car). I can tolerate mineral water.

Max passenger including the driver is four. Five is tolerable, depends on the situation. But five is THE max, regardless my type of car. If I had more than five, you'd see my grumpy face.

No feet or toe on the dashboard. It's simply impolite. Please behave.

Do not step on the side frame of the car when you are going into the car.

Check your shoes/sandals for any mud before you get in. If you have any, please make sure you clean it before you step into the car. Any attempt of cleaning would be great appreciated.

No complaining about how my car looked like, the suspension or any kind. You are riding in my car. I do you a favor. Keep your comments to yourself. Only positive and constructive comments are welcome.

Now move to my house, shall we?

I hate being a host. I really do. My house is my personal area. Therefore, I barely ask people to come and visit my house. But when I decided to invite you, I am inviting you with all my heart.

I drew a pretty thick line between my house and others.

If you are really nice and really responsible or if I knew you well or if you are my immediate family, I might invite you to come, hang around, and maybe spend few nights.

When you took a shower in my bathroom and using my towel without asking for my permission, it was WAY over the line! It was unacceptable!! No laughing matter!!

I think what I'm trying to say is, "mi casa no es su casa."

can feel the heat

judul diatas sama sekali ga ada hubungannya sama isi postingannya....

again, keyboard getting toil....makin susah aja dipencetnya. serasa pake mesin tik aje....

belom yoga minggu ini....haduh!kacau....kudu yoga atuh!

rugi niiiihh....i need my flat tummy!!!

bali lagi panas banget....mataharinya kenceng pisan. kulit kaya dibakar gitu kalo keluar....

not enjoying the heat and the sun.

i miss gloomy grey sky and the rain of course.

disini ujannya becanda doang....ujan seempret, trus panas lagi...

good thingnya jemuran jadi cepet kering....hehehe....

kinda miss wave-watching sih....

nyari hordeng kemaren. liat Onna...bagus sih...and not cheap!

again and again, barang bagus doesnt come cheap!

pengen be'ol....

kemaren bikin karangan buat di website, bikin setengah halaman aja seharian bo...gila ya....

otak udah butek banget, terakhir bikin paper taon 2004 kali tuh...ckckckck...