dot dot dot dot dot

ehemm...
menurut gua...always going to church sama sekali ga menjamin kalo orang itu beriman.....

eheem...
kalo gua bilang....orang2 ga perlu tau apa how's my relation with my creator....

ehemm...
gini....not going to church bukan tandanya gua orang jahat....pls note, it's not self justification!!!tapi emang kenyataannya gitu kok....weekk...

ehheem...
i'm happy today!not because i got new clothes (well...itu juga seh), mostly coz we spent sometime on sunday together....biasanya kan boro2 dehhhh....

eheemm...
laperrrr...

i know i know...this is another meaningless posts....hihihiih....

suatu siang yang mendung.....

darn...
it's raining hard...beangin lagi...
jam setengah 1 siang udah kaya jam 6 sore...
jakarta emang lagi demen banget ujan....

minggu ini bisa dibilang minggu yang oke...
in terms of kerjaan, relation with my creator, relation with my family and me self...it's all good!

i love my best friend...si cimol!
i love my boyfriend....si teti!

well well...well...
ngaco ah!

postingan ke dua ratus.....

okay this is gonna be some scattered things....
here i go....

one, got a token of v-day in short message...
it sounds like this...
" when i say teti/kemem/nyot i mean ...
some 1 special
some 1 i care
some 1 i need
some 1 i love
some 1 i miss
some 1 like u!
happy valentine ... "

it made may day!hohohoho...thanks bebeh!!

two, thinking about one thing but cannot write here....taboo....very secretive!
keep praying hard and hoping for the best...
asking God to prepare our heart for such huge, huge gift....amennn...

three, feeling ecstatic lately....ga tau kenapaaaaa....

four, i think i need my haircut!
haaaiiiiyyoooowww.....but some how i think (for now) i can bear the length of my hair....

five, sin cia is coming....
cepet yak!no new clothes this year....but got new purse....hohohoho....

six, fell in love with the baby deeper and deeper...
introduced "twinkle twinkle little star" to her few days back...i think she likes it...
watching her smile makes me happy...itu aja bukan anak gua...gimana kalo anak gua sendiri ya?

seven, back to number two...
please help us god....please please pleaseeeee......

mandi aaaaaahhhhhh....

i wish ....

hari ini bogor ga ujan lagi
hari ini jakarta ga ujan lagi
banjir bakalan surut in all over jakarta and sekitarnya
kita semua bisa back to our normal life....

amin.....

recent situation

banjir dimana-mana
mengerikan!!

stop buang sampah sembarangan!!

seumur idup gua baru kali ini gua bener-bener feel close to banjir and i aint loving it!

God, have mercy on us....please....

what i wrote on christmas...

This day is almost over…

Today is Christmas day.
I don’t feel like Christmas anyway.
This day is like any other day of the year.
Most of those Christmas wishes were formalities, for decency’s sake.

Sure, you can judge me. I don’t care.
But before you do, please think have you ever done something like that?

Spent this day at Andi-Kendi’s. I had fun.
We (Kendi and I) went grocery shopping. We grilled those steaks (thanks to Andi for the hard wagging work!). We smashed those potatoes.

The menus were:
Grilled barbeque sauce steak
Mash potatoes
Baked potatoes (half succeed)
Mushroom cream soup as dressing
Some mixed veggie (broccoli and beans)
Teh Kotak
Grape juice

We ate with scattered silverwares (fruit knife replacing steak knife), plates, and glasses. But it was great!
People may call it Christmas dinner since we were having the dinner on 25 December, but I prefer to call it Family dinner.

Bigger Things in Life....

There are bigger things in life that I cannot and never able to control….
There are bigger things in life that my opinion doesn’t count…

Why can’t you stand for yourself?

I ain’t gonna give him any shits!
I just wanted to kill him!
That’s it!
I wanted him to be buried alive!!

Wish you were die….
Don’t give a shit how would you die…
Just die!
It’d made us (well, me) happier…

When you are here you making me sick!
Sick of seeing you hanging around!
Sick of seeing you bragging my life down!

Me….I’m never gonna be like you…NEVER!!
Not even close!
I swear….if I becoming you, I’d kill myself!

Take a good look of yourself in the mirror…
You’ll see shits!

You are a piece of trash!

Don’t talk to me about respect if you cannot respect me!
Don’t talk to me about parenting if you cannot be one!
Don’t talk to me about manner if you don’t have one!
Don’t talk to me about feelings if you don’t have one!
Don’t talk to me about being hurts if you always the one hurting people!

From the bottom of my butt…I hate you!!!

yesterday ....

was my last day working at BAG.
if you ask how i feel....i would say i was relieved....
sad didn't came to my senses yesterday....
i'm glad i decided what i did.....

as of now, i'm excited of what lies ahead....it's blur, but i'm excited....

it pisses me off!!!!

noh yang namanya tegangan listrik di rumah gua....
it's just not enough!!!!
every single day musti nge-drop!
can't you read the situation here???can't youuu??
man....i don't understand you!!
you rather spend your money for him instead of the house hold?????
damn it!!
don't make me start hating you.....just don't!!!!

i'm a human....i have limitations!!!
i'm a human....i have feelings!!

THINK WOMAN....THINKKKK!!!!

kacau....

cabut early dari kantor hari ini...
dari semalem pikiran emang udah ga enak, mana mata bengkak lagi...siaul!
so meningan cabut deh daripada kerja juga ga beres....

lagi banyak pikiran....but ironically, i feel numb!

one thing for sure...you can;t get everything you want in this life.....

arg...ga jelas deh.....

lagi ga excited....ga excited about anything.....semua juga begitu aja....
idup lagi datar banget....
i need someone to pray for me...pray hard!

di minggu siang yang panas ....

aku tengkurep di thi...
minjem laptopnya andi...
utak atik yang bisa diliat...
panas banget ni ariii....

ngantuk deh...
pengen tidur...
ga mo ke cempaka mas...
males...
males liatin handphone...
bosennnn...

ga mo ngapa2in sih sebenernya...

cerita cerita yang lalu .....

below are my over due posting....

About the trip …

Took off on 23 Oct to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Arrived at 1 am, Oct 24.
KL is almost the same since the last time I visited. Our local tour guide was a funny guy, Mr. Pon Hong Kong. Went to Times Square mall. It was huge but got nothing inside. Took a peek into KLCC for an hour or two. Then, back to the hotel.

Went to Genting for 2 nights. On our way to Genting we stopped by Batu Cave, an Indian holy place. Got nothing to see. Climbed those 272 freaking stairs. No gambling while in Genting, I rather not to try, as I was too coward. Besides didn’t feel the lady of fortune was on my side.
Instead, we did some shopping. YAY!!!

Last day in KL was okay. Met with Soo Lan at Sunway Mall. It was a short meeting after all. Went to Sungai Wang (wang = money! Why I never thought of that??) later that night. Found my crocs shoes! So happy for me!!! J

The next morning our bus took us to Singapore through Johor Baru. A 6 hours drive. It was okay.
That brother of mine stuck at Singapore’s immigration. Turned out to be okay. After checked in at the hotel we waste no time. We got our tired feet and butts out of to the famous Orchard road by MRT. Man, I love Singapore’s transportation system!

29 Oct 2006 was our last day. Saw the Esplanade (finally!). Took some pictures. It was raining. Did some shopping for the last time.

All in all, (for me) our trip was great. Not great for my mom maybe since she was sick of shopping.

Cannot wait to see the pictures!

2 November 2006

Am I making the right decision?

Been questioning myself. This will be the biggest decision ever. I am scared. This is gonna be way, way, way out of my comfort zone. Will I survive? Will I? C r e e p y!!!

20 November 2006

This is a long over due news of mine.

Let me tell you a bit about her.
She was born on 13 November 2006, at Mitra Keluarga Hospital Kelapa Gading on 4:27pm,weighing 2.98 kg, 47 cm long after a very short C-Section operation.
Her name is Mitzy Naralane. No family name apparently – Please ask the parents why. I called her “Baby”.

Since 16 November 2006 she’s been staying at our house. The atmosphere was difference since then. Difference in a way I cannot describe.

It was amazing when I saw her move. It was amazing when I saw her opened eyes. It was amazing when she sees back right at me. It was amazing when I heard her sneezing, coughing, and crying.
It was amazing when I hold her in my hands.

She is a part of my life that I cannot ignore.

She is my little tiny niece.

Welcome to our family! It’s not perfect, but hope you’ll love it here as I love having you here.


21 November 2006

I had an almost struggling night. It drove me nuts. My blood ran to my head in a split second!
Why you people can’t be quite for one night? Yes, O N E night. Why???

I demand privacy and comfort in my own room. Why it is so hard? Why people, tell me why????

People seems doesn’t care about my presence. Sometimes I wish I were invisible. At least I thought it’d make my life much easier.

I think it’s better for me to stay out of that freakin’ house.

27 November 2006

Spent my weekend over the house. Took care of my little niece.

It was a nice accomplishment. At least I learnt something new. Something I never thought I was gonna do at this age.
It is nice to watch her while she was sleeping. To see her chest and tummy goes up and down. Looks very cute.
It was rewarding calming her down after a rough crying session.
It was wonderful smelling the “baby odour” around the house.
It was incredible and scary at the same time when I held her in my arms.
I think I’m going to miss her so much when she is not around anymore. L

You are my baby niece and will always be!
*Darn, I’m turning into a baby worshiper*

Dragged my self to the office today. I promised myself that I am not going to let laziness surround me today. And I failed! Hehehehhe…

There are 2 new peeps in the office, one for Iyen and the other one for Cath.
It left me with 17 working days until my D-day. Times really flies.


29 November 2006

Wet season is starting! It almost raining all day. I’m loving it as long as I’m in the building.
Have you ever find one that you really want to slap but one never did something wrong to you? I have. The face man, the darn face!!!

I think there’s something wrong with my right point finger. It hurts. It swollen like a giant finger compares to my other fingers.

happy (early) birthday to my niece/nephew...

ehmm....
happy (early) bday my little niece/nephew....
i'll be seeing you this afternoon...hohohohoohohohoho.....
can't wait!
hope you'll be a great kid.....

amennn....

tons of huggiessssss,
your super aunt (to be).....

scattered....

i don't understand...i really don't....
just one question.....WHY?
moga2an semuanya akan baik2 aja....amiiinnn....

by tomorrow, i'm gonna be an aunt!!hohohoohoh....
hopefully the operation goes well...amennnn...

laper!

belon mandi....

mo vacuum boil aja ntar...

mo nonton dvd aja....

kalo dipikir2 orang itu ga bisa ditebak....
dunia oh dunia...aneh2 aja...
banyak yang ga bisa kita percaya....
banyak hal yang bikin my jaw drops....
anehhhhhh......

lately ...

. lost 2 kgs .

. thinking too much .

. worrying too much .

. questioning too much .

. need more money .

. bored .

. lazy .

. it is not fair .

. do not care .

. ....... .

while waiting....

Sunday = a slap back to reality.

Here i am in changi airport...
the last 6 days been great...

tomorrow back to work and not looking forwad to it.... :(

after quite sometime....

here i am....
at home...
using my bro's pc....

few things happen....
the usual life cycle...morning - work - home - sleep - morning - work - home - sleep...and on, and on....
the wedding (btw, you guys married for almost a month!heck...where time goes??)
the resignation decision....'i know i made the right decision'...effective as 16 Dec 2006....
the 'professional' talk with my so called boss....
the excitement of having a family holiday....it's shopping time....hohohoho....
the tennis lesson....i'm willing (WILLING) to learn this thing for ages....

then....what?

tonight we are taking off to Kuala Lumpur...
be back on the 29th...

soo....adios amigos!!!
buhhh-bbyyyeee....

COOL TAMALE!

*feel like dancing....*

......

pengen banget bunuh orang!!!
mungkin it'll make (at least) me much better...
coba kalo bunuh orang itu ga dosa....i'd do it ages ago!

i'm sick liat dia hanging around doing nothing besides slacking!eneg banget...suer!!lebih ngarah ke jijik seh!

man..i aint gonna the things that happen in her life happen in mine!!i aint!!!

blah

hueemmm...
what to write ya?
oohh.....apparently, my english speaking ability is getting worse!

nyamuk lagi banyak banget nih....

current feeling: benci!!!!

a friend of mine ....

I have a friend.
Used to call him Akew. Out of the blue I think of him.
He was annoying.
I knew nothing about him.
But one thing I always knew - he was a good guy.

If by any chance you read this - "Akew, Akew where art thou?"
We should catch up sometimes.