empty jakarta

how i love the empty jakarta....
it's so nice....

waktu tempuh dari cawang ke airport (lewat tol tj priok): about 20 minutes....can you believe that?
waktu tempuh dari airport ke mt haryono: 25 minutes with 60-80km/hr...one more time, can you believe that?

duniaku indaaahh...
lalalalaaaa.....
i love driving...uhhuuuyyy (today only)

pengalaman pertama....

Date: 27 Sept 2008
Time: 3.20pm-ish
Location: Per-empat-an Pancoran to Kuningan
Event: Merry's Birthday Dinner

Policeman (P): *sign* stooooppp!!!
Me: *thinking: hah?!?DAMN!!* Drove to the side of the street
P: "Sore, mbak. Kalo lampu merah berenti, mbak. Bisa liat SIM-nya?"
Me: *looking for my driving license and gave it to him without say a word*
P: *mesem mesem* "Jadi gimana nih?Mau tilang atau 'titip sini' aja?"
Me: "Tilang aja pak!Saya minta tiket biru aja."
P: "Mau tilang ato 'titip sini' aja?Kalo tilang nanti sidang dan SIMnya ditahan di pengadilan"
Me: "Tiket biru aja, pak. Nanti SIM saya gampang saya ambil aja di pengadilan!"
P: "Titip sini aja deh..."
Me: "Tiket biruuuuu, saya mau tiket biruuu...tilang aja!!!"
P: "Titip sini aja deh, titip sini aja deh..." *half begging sambil mesem mesem*
Me: *thinking: Yeehh ni polisi rese banget sih* "Tiket biru ajeee paaakk, ga masalah soal SIM"
P: *masih mesem-mesem* "Titip sini aja yaaa...."
Me: *looking for a small change in my car, got twenty thousand rupiah, and gave it to him without even looking*
P: *mesem mesem and returning my driving license* "Selamat jalan ya, mbak!"
Me: *Thinking: rese lu!!* "Slamat Lebaran pak!"

After Lunch

we ate at Lapo for lunch today.
it was sooooo gooood.
but cannot tahan the smell...

had this headache since morning.
cenut...cenut...cenut...

well, at least its friday....
i love friday....

mouth control

i didn't have a mouth control lately
everything just blabberred out of my mouth without any filter a.k.a my brain!
hehehehe.....

on dissapointment

remember someone name dissapointment?
have you ever meet him?
if you have not, let me introduce him to you...
here you go, his name is dissapointment.
he basically is everywhere.
he might stays here and there for a period of time.
and when you wants him to stay longer, it's a super easy thing to do.
on the other hand, if you want him to go away right away, it's a super hard thing to do.

if you haven't meet him in a long time,
let me remind you of him.
he will haunt your back from time to time, whether you want it or not.

and as for me, he's with me now.
so close!
and still can't i shoo him away.
why?

REJECTION sucks

hi up there!

hi up there...
i know its been a long time since our last conversation.
well, more to im talking to you.
sorry :(

how are ya?
hope are well.

is it possible if i asked you one thing?
...please heal my untie....she's having cancer...
this is her second time...please help her and her family...

it's friday!

Today is Friday.
Thanks God for Friday. :)
In the office. Working. Spending hours in the day.
Not sure what to write. hehehe
Just want to scratch here and there. hehehe....
oh well, its friday....

friday....

Back at One - Brian Mcknight

It’s undeniable that we should be together
It’s unbelievable, how I used to say that I’d fall never
The basis is need to knowIf you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I’m for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
Yeah

1 - one, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to seeThat you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with meIf ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one
(yeah)

It’s so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it’s all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would’ve made it very far
’cause you know you got the keys to my heart
’cause...

Repeat 1

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time

*it's been a loooooonngg time since the last time i wrote in this blog. miss it!
And I know, I'm not really writing :) but still, there's an update after almost a year....hehehehehe....

ps. just realized the lyrics is so good!thinking of using this song for our enterance procession. hhhmmm....

Dari mataku....

Piko itu....
Anjing pertama yang gua kenal in my life...the one I had closest encounter with.
Dikenalin waktu gua kelas 2 smp.
Kesan pertama: GALAK!
Tapi I think we get along well.

Piko itu...
Anjing pertama yang gigit gua, dibetis....

Piko itu...
Rasa2nya suka sewot ama gua...soalnya gua demen banget isengin dia....
tiup-tiup dari bawah pintu, kekepin kupingnya, kekepin moncongnya, kekepin mukanya....
Dia suka keki ama gua, sampe akhirnya dia ga peduli lagi kalo gua godain...

Piko itu...
Ga mau digendong ama gua...udah sebel duluan kali yeee...

Piko itu...
Paling hobi nangkring deket gua kalo gua lagi makan...trus ngeliatin isi piring gua...and biasanya gua ga tega....soooo gua kasih makanan lah dia....

Piko itu...
Dulu suka gua ajak maen dikasur...garuk-garuk....
Dulu punya bantal kesayangan...suka gua rebut and dia murka ama gua....

Piko itu....
Paling suka kalo gua garuk-garuk dibelakang kuping and leher bawah....he simply cannot decided harus nengglek kemana kepalanya kalo gua lagi garuk kuping kiri dan kanan at the same time...

Piko itu...
Makin tua makin gendut...trus mulutnya bau...ga tau kenapa....tapi dia tetep ganteng...the most handsome pom ever!

Piko itu...
Kalo tidur lama-lama bisa celentang....ngorok pula...

Piko itu...
Ga pernah marah ama Pika even kadang si Pika suka kelewatan. He has a good heart. If he were a human, I think he'll be a great one!

Dear Piko,
It is through you that I realized I have heart for dogs. Thanks ya...
Have a pleasant life up there. I know you are gonna be a supper great dog as you always do.
It is surely super nice knowing you. :)

Garuk-garuk,
Me.

Gurnee Mills, Gurnee, IL

Went shopping at Gurnee Mills with PB.
That reptile store still freaking me out. I ran passed by it without even looking at it, like I always do. *grin*
Took a peek at Banana Republic Factory Store, T.J. Maxx, GAP, Abercombie & Fitch, and so on....on...on...
Kept the goodies I bought in my hands.
They were heavy, but I just didn't feel it. I was so happy.
So excited!
I smiled like I was never smiled before.

.....

It's all happen while I was sleeping.
Darn!

*I Miss Millioke and beyond*

today is my 2nd day

Been working at Bo Le Associates since yesterday.
Still in the learning process. Still don't know what to do and how to do it.
Here, we are all grown-ups. No one will remind or tell you what to do. You simply need intiative.

I have this job I need to do, but I'm just too lazy to do it right now. hohohoho...
Promise, will get this thing done by today.

Well, gotta back to work yow!

millioke...

strolled that old building complex
touched that old cold walls
felt the wind blow my face and hair
still can feel the coldness
wore the same black coat
stood on the same spot
breath the same old beer odor...

and then...
i woke up
i was in milwaukee....in my sleep....
i almost chocked....
i almost cried...

it was so real....

SPIDER PIG!

SPIDER PIG, SPIDER PIG, does whatever a SPIDER PIG does, can he swing, from a web, no he can't cause he's a pig. LOOOK OOOOOOOOOOOOUT, here comes the SPIDER PIIIG!

yeah, spider pig!!

baru pulang...

dari cicurug and bogor...
kesan hari ini...KENYANG!

tadi pagi ke JPCC...baru pernah tuh...
idup banget tu gereja....and kotbahnya oke banget...bulan ini lagi ngomongin soal pernikahan, family, relationship...gitu2 lah...so practical....sebenernya pengen liat lagi...pengen denger lagi...tapi ya minggu depan ga bisa....

song leadernya keren abis...gila gila gila gila and gua kaget banget pas dikasih tau dia umur 38!!!!whaaatttt???tiga-puluh-delapan tahun????????and punya 2 anak????
and he looks so bloody young....kaya orang umur 27 ato 28 gitu lah...
ampiiiirrr naksir gua...untungg kagaaa....
gaya asik banget, suaranya bagus, rambutnya oke, punya dimples, namanya bagus pula....aih!!aih aih aih...ga abis pikir deh gua....

mengapa ooohhhh MENGAPAAAA cowo oke di dunia ini is either taken or gay???MENGAPAAAAAA???
tenang, ni...tenangg.....one day, one day....cowo yang oke buanget buat lu lagi disiapin....tenaaannngg....*wink wink to the big guy up there*

n g a n t u k

ngantuk...
artinya sleepie...
artinya mau tidur..
artinya butuh tidur...
artinya mau peluk guling...
artinya mau masuk slimut...angettt...

tapi...
blum mau tidur..
mood tidur blum ada...

laper...
yaaahh.....
tadi padahal udah makan banyak...
kacauu...

aku...
mau apaaa....
lalalalalala....

not proud of these things!

losing my weight since the past 2 monts...
it's time for me to really eat up!

in the midst of complaining and asking stupid questions to the big guy up there
im human maaahh...
but im no ordinary human, im a positive human...so tomorrow i'll be back to the stronger me...

hehehehe....

die hard 4.0....checked!
harry potter 5....checked!
simpsons the movie....checked!
transformers....uncheck juga ga apa2 lah....
hehehehhe...

udah bersukur bisa nonton tuh pelem2 listed above...hehehhe...

trus ngapain aja ya kemaren?
i feel better, much better....walo kadang2 suka masih agak2 blank tiba2....
tapi langsung get my mind on something...
talking with people who cares really helps lighten my burden....sumpeh...i dont know what would i do without them....mungkin sekarang gua masih 'gila' kali ya....
and im glad im not!!!wooooohhhoooo...

oh ye minggu depan mulai tenis...yay!akhirnya...belajar juga...tau de bisa kaga...euehuehue...

Still learning ....

To love God more and to put Him as my first love object.
….Really don’t know how yet…please show me God….

How to forgive and forget.
….Coz I know ga ada gunanya benci sama orang karena itu cuma akan merugikan gua. Besides, apa lah artinya idup tanpa pengampunan?

To see things from God’s perspective or dengan kata lain belajar jadi orang positif
….Bener-bener ga gampang, coz it’s all in my head. Semua prediksi-prediksi yang gua pikirin itu blom tentu terjadi. Mungkin aja malah the other way around.

To hear God’s voice
….I’m not sensitive enough (yet).

To give thanks in all situation in my life, the good and the bad
….At the end, pasti the best thing happen for me from my God.

To have peace in me….
…in my heart….

To love my life
….dengan segala kekurangannya ….

To let go of all the things that didn’t happen as I wished it to happen

To fight and do everything in my power in life
….And memasrahkan hasil akhirnya pada Tuhan…

To grow up and how to be the bigger person in life

To stop questioning and start believing

To be less selfish
…and start thinking about other people. Di luar sana banyak banget orang-orang lain, dunia isinya bukan cuma gua dan masalah gua….di luar sana masih banyak masalah-masalah yang jauh lebih berat dibanding masalah gua….

To live one day at a time a.k.a jalanin aja
…since there’s literally nothing (nothing!) I can do about this.

After all, life is about learning, heh?
We never really graduate from this school of life until our last breath….

Should I?

Start drinking coffee again??
some inside, please?

By Anonymous

To smile when the heart is heavy
And all is full of ill
When the path of life is dull
When the roses have all dropped and died
And their perfume now all spent
When stream dash madly, wildly on
With fury giving vent
When birds are silent in the trees
Beneath a sky cast grey
Yes, to smile when the heart is breaking
And joy has taken flight
Is ever a courageous thing
And so precious in God's sight.....