i wonder

kenapa ya jerawat gua adanya disisi kanan muka gua?

super random

just finished my coffee.
AKU CINTA KOPI

my hair is so damn long already!
it's in the stage where i can pull my hair and create a tiny ugly pony tail = BAD stage
need a hair cut ASAP!

need to check my sight one of these days.
i think my eyes getting worse....hmmm....

want to go to the loo to poo (hey, that rhyme....nice!)
but could pick my ass off this chair
my heavy ass is just too lazy...

thinking what to do today?

after 3 nights in a row hearing my niece crying her lung out,
i decided that i'm not ready to have children yet
my time will come, but not close....i can feel it in my bone!

at this stage, decided not to have twins anymore....too many too bear
(tapi kalo dikasih....ya ndak papa)

not in the mood of talking about wedding preparation related
- even not in the mood of thinking about it
T I R E D

torn between going to GI or not ya?
NIKE is having sale at the moment.....
bakalan kaya charles and keith gak ya ramenya?

mandi ah.....

Plug In Your Emotional Battery by Rick Warren

In our Devotionals series, Pastor Rick Warren discusses the Bible passages that inspire him the most.

Today's Devotional is based on this passage:
"Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, 'Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest'" (Mark 6:31 NIV).

Are you overwhelmed? Do you feel inadequate? Are you ready to blow at any moment? You can't love others in a godly way when you're at the end of your emotional rope. How many relationships have been ripped apart because the people involved failed to take care of themselves emotionally?

God's Word gives us three habits that can help us recharge emotionally when we have nothing left to give.
1. Solitude.
Mark 6:31 says, "So many people were coming and going...[Jesus] said to them [the disciples], 'Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest'" (NIV). Jesus understood that your emotions are like a battery. If you plug one lightbulb into a battery, it will last for a fairly long time. If you plug in 100 lights, the battery will drain very quickly. Many of you have so many lights plugged in, your battery is shot. You can't recharge anybody else—you can't give love—if your own battery is drained. You recharge when you get away by yourself.

2. Play.
The Bible says, "Jesus came enjoying life" (Matthew 11:19 PH). He was the most people-focused, ministry-intensive person who ever lived, yet he took the time to have fun. Certain activities recharge you emotionally; they literally re-create your energy and enthusiasm for life. We all have different activities that recharge us because we're all made differently. Find out what recharges you emotionally and make time for it.

3. Laughter.
Proverbs 17:22 says, "Being cheerful keeps you healthy" (GNT). Studies prove that when you laugh, it increases your number of T-cells, which raises your immunity level. Laughter is good for your health. Humor is God's gift to us. Remember, God has a sense of humor—he made you!

To be emotionally balanced, take God very seriously but don't take yourself seriously. Learn to laugh at your limitations. There is plenty of material. If you only laugh and enjoy life when your problems are all solved, you'll never enjoy life.

these days

been sick since the past two days.
huk...
got flu and cough....
i think the fever is on its way...
the headache is almost here....i can feel it!

sipping a hot mint tea is calming.....
the cough is less....
the headache is getting closer....

blabbering around

this is gonna be a random post....

meet up with the girls a PS...
anaknya amoy mirip banget amoy ya....gile...

ujan nih...
love the rain and the gloomy sky....

besok kerja lagi...
not really looking forward sih
but somehow i think (I THINK) i still have the semangat button in my system...
i can feel it!

i congratulate myself for being able to hold back any shopping desire today!
fiuh....leganya gak belanja...

ate sushi tei, as i expected....eehehehe...

looking forward to go to bali this october....
also, looking forward for the possibility of going to surabaya next month....
never been to surabaya, so i wonder itu kota kaya apa sih...

thinking about when my braces will be out?
hopefully before november 2009, but if not....oh well, i can live with it!

feeling of eating rambutan....
makan ah...

my hair is soooo long, but still manage to ignore it somehow...
promise myself to cut in on may *crossing my finger*

thanking God the almigthy for every tiny little thing in my life....
trying to be a better person and not panicking....

lots of documents crap to be taking care of for the wedding....
try my best to enjoy every single step of this wedding preparation.

feeling of watching dvd later...
nonton ah....

makan rambutan plus nonton ahhhh....

On Being Stressed Out

Just got off the phone with my wedding planner.
She said I'm the most stressed out client!heheheh...
Am I?Really??

I had this dream few days ago, it was the D-day. We all gathered in the Church. But the pastor was missing.
Turned out I forgot to booked him the flight!!!!
argh...

bangun tidur aja panik....ahauehae...
It was 9 months before the D-day and I had nightmare already!
Can't wait what's next....hehehehehe....

learn on how to let go of everything

i know i'm suppose to be pasrah...
to let go....
and not try to have control over everything...
especially this thing....

you have no idea how hard i tried...
you have no idea how i wish i took things easily....

im so freakin out....
stressed out!
my body show signs to stop stressing and relax
but my head just cant accept it!

argh!
i hate it!!!!!

please help me....help me....help me...

but deep down, i know i'm gonna be alrgiht...
gak ada problem....i know...
cuma this suara hati belom sekuat pikiran in my head....

waaaagggh!!!

*praying buat besok ke dokter*

aduh.....

stress deh....
this is a tough case deh....i really hate it!
man!
udah banyak yg dikasih, cuma blm ada yg pas gitu...
arg!

kesel deh hari ini....

i just wanna gooooo

siang hari di kantor....

di kantor...
gak mood...
mau telpon...
di ruang meeting aja...
sepi soalnya...

sigh...
kenapa ya?

looking forward to this weekend...
smoga ga ada perubahan rencana
coz im tired disini...i need udara segeerr...

The Greatest Gift of All - Jim Brickman & Michelle Wright

It's not the flowers, wrapped in fancy paper

It's not the ring, I wear around my finger

There's nothing in all the world I need

When I have you here beside me, here beside me

So you could give me wings to fly

And catch me if I fall

Or pull the stars down from the sky

So I could wish on them allBut I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

In your arms, I found a strength inside me

And in your eyes, there's a light to guide me

I would be lost without you

And all that my heart could ever want has come true

So you could give me wings to fly
And catch me if I fall
Or pull the stars down from the sky
So I could wish on them allBut I couldn't ask for more
'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

You could offer me the sun, the moon

And I would still believe

You gave me everything

When you gave your heart to me

But I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

You could give me wings to fly

And catch me if I fallOr pull the stars down from the sky

So I could wish on them all

But I couldn't ask for more

'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

love, love, love this song....beautiful lyrics!

i think....

i'm in that moment again!
feel so bored with my job.
otak udah ga bisa diajak kerjasama lagi...
ga bisa mikir even udah dipaksa.

bosen...seriously...so boring....

gak nemuin semangat untuk kerja lagi...
kenapa ya?

feeling guilty....real bad!

oh well, better start working my ass

sleepy head!

after lunch....
ngantuk banget...
beler berat...
otak mampet banget....
parah nih..
baru jem 1 lagi...
5 long hours to go....

today's event

satu dari serangkaian event udah lewat...
lega....
fiuh...
and i can say it went well. walo ada little incident, still great!
so....great!

lalalala.....

after sometime....

after sometime....
....watching
....noticing
....looking
....analyzing
....thinking

and then I decided
....those whom I can be friend with
....those whom I can trust
....those whom I can lean on
....those whom will landed a kick on my ass

These are the things in my head at 1.59pm

mau kentut

gak sabar mau pulang, mau makan bakut....how i love bakut

now udah mau poo and just realized i haven't poo today.

thinking, thinking, thinking, thinking.....

can't wait to go home and playing my games!

freakin out

Okay,
I have a reason why I'm freakin out....
It's because wherever I go, I heard people getting cancer...
dammit!
It's freaking me out!

stress banget deh....hik...

'You need a miracle tomorrow'

You never know when God is going to bless you!!
Good things happen when you least expect them to!!!!!!!!

Dear Lord, I thank You for this day,

I thank You for my being able to see

and to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are

a forgiving God and

an understanding God.

You have done so much for me

and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything

I have done, said or thought

that was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe

from all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day

with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day

to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind

that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper

over things I have no control over.

And give me the best response

when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,

You listen to my heart.

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be

a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...

Keep me uplifted that I may have

words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost

and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged

and misunderstood.

I pray for those who

don't know You intimately.

I pray for those that don't believe.

But I thank You that I believe

that God changes people and

God changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers.

For each and every family member

in their households.

I pray for peace, love and joy

in their homes; that they are out of debt

and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this

knows there is no problem, circumstance,

or situation greater than God.

Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.

I pray that these words be received

into the hearts of every eye that sees it in Jesus' name.

Amen!

Just repeat this phrase and see how God moves!! God I love you and I need you, come into my heart, please. Know that you are already blessed by the person who sent this to you.

today

my mood isn't in a good stage today.
a very bad one!
very sensi!
not feeling like talking.
not feeling like smiling.

males deh....

GEMES!

okay, here's the thing...
pernah ga lu ngerasain you are in the border?
less than 1 step lu sebenernya bisa sampe disana?
but unfortunately, due to out of your control circumstances akhirnya ga bisa sampe sana?
damn!
that what i feel yesterday!and a little bit today.

about my performance review.
my company that im working for is a performance driven company.
my boss know that i work my ass off!but unfortunately, the numbers in the paper didnt show that!
dammit!
there's nothing she can do since all promotion shall be reviewed by the headquarter in hong kong.
and of course, they look at the numbers.
f*ck!
its not fair!how the hell i know that that freaking online system really dragging me down?
its so not fair. i help them to get money and they didnt put my name in the system just because they didnt understand!!!dammit!
dammit!
dammit!
dammit!
dammit!
dammit!
dammit!
..............

anyhoooow, talked to my boss about it.
and it was very important for me that she know i work hard!

im so freaking angry yesterday!
but today im okay.... :)

lets enjoy the saturday....lalalala