Farewell, Mami....

"You've been a solid fighter, a strong woman, and a great example of how human being should live. You've done your part well, now rest in peace, Aunty. I'm sure God is happy to see you once again."

3 March 1946 - 14 September 2010

Quote Empe, "kita pasti ketemu lagi."

.... Farewell and good bye, Mami ....

Letting someone you love dearly go....

My uncle and my auntie....
Two very different personalities.
One is strong headed, one is soft.
One is so frank, one is so wise.

Been married for 40 years (i think).
Regardless all life challenges they still together until today. Until the day my auntie get really sick. He stand by her all the way.

I think his FB status say it all (and I quote):

"Aku sangat terbuka semua yg aku dengar n lihat aku katakan pada T Koo tidak ada perubahan sedikitpun.Memang ia agak lemah akibat endoscopy karena dibius total biasa aku sungguh bahagia bisa mendampingi istriku dikala ia benar2 membutuhkanku inilah karunia yg diberikan YESUS kpdku untuk mencintainya disepanjang suka n duka.TQ GOD"

I think they are so meant for each other.

no more words to express how i feel........

random

sunday...

dengerin lagu mandarin di you tube....jadi mellow, abis kayanya lagunya sedih pisan...
di luar mendung juga...tambah mellow...hehe

mau ke gereja....

sempet liat2 tiker and hotel....lumayan juga ya...

tadinya mau lari pagi di pantai hari ini, tapi ga jadi deh tidurnya malem sih...
harus coba nih sekali2....hit the beach early in the morning...hehehe...
worried why perut gua gendut sih? berat badan masih sama loh, kemaren sih gara2 masuk angin...lah sekarang kenape?

!

gak pengen di kantor loh sebenernya hari sabtu gini.

blehe!

hello from paradise

hello!

i'm in bali since last week.
we made our way out of jakarta on jul 27, 2010.
initially, was planning to drive from jakarta to bandung, but changed my mind and kept driving.
after 555.55 km and 13 hours 40 minutes later, i drove up to yogyakarta. an achievement i must tell you. never thought i can drive that long and far. quite proud of myself!
it was raining pretty hard several times.

anyway, during the past week we've been cleaning and arranging the house.
had my low moments. not anymore. i'm bouncing back quite fast. thank God for that :)
food been good. weather also good. need to get my life back on track. more discipline!
need to save money since we are planning to buy or hopefully build a house here.

have a trip on oct to sydney, gold coast, and melb. yay!
and more saving to be done!

currently at the office in the boss' room. hihihihi...the liberty of having the husband as my boss. hohohoho....
today is my first day working as a Finance/Office Manager in Ray White Kuta.
praying to have good businesses and harvest in the future.
guess what?i dont even have a desk yet.
create my own job desk. listing what need to buy and be done. seems i have a lot of work!
its been 10 months as an employee. but now, cant think like an employee. i need to think about the business also. haiyo....
had my first meeting this morning. it was oke lah....

oh well, better get back to work!

thats it!!

Think I've been a good person.
But I'm only human.
That is it!!

I'm moving away, I'm taking all I am and starting a new life in a new place.
I don't have to hear from him ever again.
He's NOT part of my life anymore.
Couldn't careless.

See ya and I don't wanna see ya (ever again!)
.....

here, there, and everywhere.....

Cape banget deh.
Ga berasa in about 2 weeks time I'll be leaving jakarta and heading to kuta, bali.
And packing isn't nearly done!*jeger*

Been staying in cawang for a week, bantuin toko. Miss my apartment like crazy!
Miss my privacy, my space, my own time.

A bit excited to move out jakarta, a bit nervous too.
What if ga betah? What if suasananya ga enak?

Lately I can't hear the voices in my head. Kecapean kali ye?
I can't even think.
Maaann....I really need a me time.
Mungkin bener juga yg si nyot bilang kayanya gua lebih seneng idup sendiri...
Haheuaha...gila!ya sendiri emang enak sih kadang2....
And I don't mind sendirian juga...tapi kadang sepi sih...

Kuku gua ancur banget nih....
Kenapa sih kayanya semua kudu gua?
Sampe all the time I have left di jakarta juga kudu dipake??
I refuse...sorry, I still have to do other stuff

Sleepy. Ngawur ngomongnye!

loncat sana, loncat sini

as usual....
otak pikirannya loncat sana, loncat sini....
lagi sakit kepala juga...

apa ya?
banyak sih di otak, cuma bingung mau mulai dari mana...hehehe...
bite me!

ah udah aaahhh

ketika bermalam di cawang.....

Rasanya beda dari yg gua tau dulu.
Sleeping in my old room, not as comfy as the old time.
Maybe this is rasanya leave the old nest and build my own new nest ya?
Not saying cawang is bad.
Cuma udah ga terbiasa aja.
Keadaannya, bisingnya suara kendaraan bermotor, ruangan2 yang rasanya kurang familiar.
Udaranya, warna cahaya lampu. Semuanya beda.
I can't find me here.
I love my new nest, yg bentar lagi akan ditinggalin.
Baru ngerasa "this is home; my, our home"....ehh harus pergi.
Sempet kecewa. Sedih udah pasti.

And jujur aja, I can't say bali is home just yet.
Waktu si suami otaknya lagi lempeeeng banget dia pernah bilang, "this is for a better life, for our family. Our life."
Iya juga sih kalo dipikir2.

It aint easy to say good bye. Aint!
:(

people!!!!

Heran deh orang orang.
Pada kehebohan demo obama...
Duileh!
Kurang kerjaan.
denger dulu, liat dulu baru komentar.
Lah ini...belom juga ada apa2, uda teriak2 sana sini...
Buset deh...

Oh mobil stream udah laku...
So fast. Seriously fast. Maybe its just time.

Setrikaan belom digosok nih
Udah second batch...hihui...
Bodo ah tugas sang suami...hihi

Excited about the coming family trip.
Walopun itu artinya menguras kantong...
Ahahaha...mungkin krn gua pengen liat si mitsoy aja kali ya...

Pengen punya a good sunglasses, just like my ralph lauren sunglasses...
Awet....since 2002, sampe sekarang masih bagus...
Mau beli ahh...

Mau ice cream...kenapa ya?akhir2 ini mau ice cream terus...
Oh well...

a tribute buat si kecil

kecil...
berbulu...

nakal sih engga...
galak juga engga...

manja banget
ga mau turun naek tangga sendiri
padahal bisa, tapi manja....

takut gendong dia, bukan karena dia galak
tapi takut nyakitin dia....
soalnya gua ga tau pasti kaki yang sakit itu yang mana
....pernah coba gendong...tiba2 tereak, "nggeeeeekkk"
lah, salah cara gendongnya....
dimarahin dah gua....

waktu baru dateng bisa duduk ditelapak tangan gua
warnanya item. lucuuuuuuu banget....

dari kecil udah doyan buah...
inget banget, dia pernah jilatin jus alpukat di gelas plastik sampe kepalanya masuk dan mukanya blepotan jus alpuket...ahauehauehae....

iseng banget sama piko, suka humping semena mena....hihihihiii....

terakhir gua liat, just last month.
udah tua, warnanya udah abu abu pudar agak kecoklat-coklatan
waktu itu ngintilin gua ke kantornya si papi, duduk dibawah kaki gua...
seinget gua, dia ga pernah ngintilin gua....tapi hari itu dia ngintilin gua...mungkin karena ga ada orang kali ya?
sempet gua foto foto dan unyeng unyeng...i am so glad sempet unyeng-unyeng dia...

si kecil yang cempreng,
sekarang kamu udah ga di buaran lagi....
udah diatas sana...
gak sakit lagi, ga muntah lagi, ga batuk lagi...
baik baik ya disana....

you holds a special place in my heart, just like piko...
always....

the L town

have you ever really (REALLY, REALLY, REALLYYYYY) wanna go somewhere, you know you just have to go??
for me it's London. It's calling me....again and again!

i know i have to set my priorities right and it's one of mine!

every time i saw or read something about it, my heart itch (lebay ye?hahauehea). just have to go there!!

something about it really struck me.
and people says, "there's internet, there's google map. you dont have to go there to be there"
aahh...gak bisa!it's totally different. liat dari internet and being there physically. i need to be able to breath UK's air. my nostril and lungs need to feel the cold wet air. i want to touch the old modern buildings. i wanna ride the underground, the red double decker bus, the london eye.

katanya sih mahal kesana....tapi teteeepp....gua harus pergi....

have to go there. somehow. someday.

Been a while...

Pengen ice cream.
Blizzard Oreo to be exact. Somehow I like it lately.

Ngantuk. Cape banget.
Tadi yoga. Seru deh.
Nanti kalo jadi pindah yoga gua gimana ya??

Ngantuk ngantuk ngantuk

here, there, and everywhere

lagi berlabuh di rumah nyokap for 4 days, secara ditinggalin ama suami.

2010 already!
cepet sekali.

baru awal taun, tapi udah dihadapi dengan pilihan yang sangaaaaatt sulit.
masih mikir sih.
ahahahahaha....

ah ga mood nulis ah....
pengen nontonnnnn....gggrrrrr....

a note at the end of the day

Catch cold since last Thursday.

Ingus is gone, batuk still here.

Kuping pengeng banget.

Searched in the internet and i'm pretty sure i have blocked Eustachian tube. a bad one.

Tried everything on how to treat it, but nothing works!

Going to see the doctor tomorrow. :(

Need to get better sooooon.

I have plans already. and lots of it!

the husband been very nice and nurturing for the past few days. Thank you :)

the sweetest thing is he didn't use the shower in our bedroom just because he didn't want to wake me up. it was 4.30am. he got an early gig this Sunday.

but, his cell bunyiiii....ahauehuae..jadi gua bangun juga. tapi gesture dan usahanya i really appreciate!

Thank you :)

Suppose to be sleeping right now. Sleepy already. Not to mention tired also!

tapi belom bisa tidur. ada apa gerangan?

oya, cleaning the apartment tadi pagi. bersih bersih bersih. tapi abis bersih bersih kok jadi semaput??heeekk....

almost midnight. and i enjoy my 'me' time. almost no time for me lately. hmmm...

and anehnya mood kerja ga on banget...aneh sekali...ahaeuheu...

banyak yang lagi hamil nih....hihihhih....

anak kantor ada 3, si kendi...whauehae..and somehow, secara ga sadar gua suka usap2 perut sendiri....whauehue...

children?yes, i want children someday when the time is right.

girl or boy?either will be okay. as long as they are healthy and smart.

belom mo tidur nihhhh.....males rasanya...masih pengen sendiri....hihih...

i know, i know should take my rest now.

tapiiiii......

i wanna get better.......lalalalalalaaaa.....

few things back....

been married for exactly 19 days.
the ceremony was awesome. i am glad!
the reception was a success. i am glad!

apartment is still a mess.
working on it, working on it!
promise will be done before Christmas...hehehe...

back in bo le for a month.

planning to go to HK and Macau this december.
needs to do lots of things before pergi kalo jadi.

will spend the weekend in Borobudur Hotel...yeheee...
gratis bo....asik asik asik...
ga tau sih mo ngapain, cuma ya seru aja...ahaeuhe...

bits and pieces, here and there, blah and bleh....

mornin'!

sipping my coffee for sure. :)
haven't brush my teeth for sure.
once my dentist said coffee before brushing my teeth.
so yeah, been doing it since the past 7 or 8 years, unless i don't have the access to tooth brush after coffee. for instance, when i'm travelling. (heck...why am i talking about this?)

been eyeing this boot from banana republic.
but it's currently, out of stock. damn!
it's not that expensive....below $100 pula. halah!
emang ga jodoh kali yeh....

so what's the plan for today?
packing up my last bits and pieces kali ya?
hehehe....

haven't done any treatment yet.
cuek aja kali ya?hehehehe...
mentok juga cuma scrub plus lulur doang....hehehhe....

anyway, 5 more days.
this is my last week as single. huge step!
lately, i've been quite....
lots in my mind, lots to prepare....

tomorrow is my final fitting.

..............

technical meeting

technical meeting.
i can say it went well.
but somehow i feel that she didn't grip it!
somehow.
but dont want to overthink it.
let it flow aja. :)
semoga semuanya lancar...
it's 10 more days!
ini cuma urusan 2 jam aja kok...yg jauh lebih penting itu kehidupan after that....
eheheh.....
i can say the prep is 95% done.
and from my side i think 98% done. so lega lah....

starting from today.....santai santai time....and self preparation time....
makin banyak2 doa....
can't believe that this day is gonna come soon.....
wow!

tidur dulu ah....

nothing in particular

eleven more days to go.

i'm truly exhausted from the packing and the running around.
but enjoying it.
turned out i have lots of crap!hehehe....

you know what?
i'm surviving this miara-kuku-thing...
bothering me for sure. but just don't want to give up...hehehe
one week to go!and my nails are gonna be so pretty!heheheh....

blah....blabbering doang...hehehehe

today random acts

packed my shoes. got 3 boxes already!
threw some pairs, like 5 i guess.

packed some of my documents and stationary.

capenya....

sleepy already now.
been busy, very busy lately.

so im happy spending some time at home, alone.
doing what i love doing....packing!yeheeee....

my hair....oh my hair...its too long.
kalo waktunya cukup, i'll chop it on nov 16!
it'll be gone by then!GONE!
back to short hair do again.
yepeeeee....

im out!