in the midst of doubt

no particular reason on the subject above.
dadakan keluarnya gitu aja.


i miss writing. 
tapi lately, i have nothing to write about.
kayanya semua datar aja. 


it's almost christmas. cepet yah...
time went just like that...wuuzzz...uda mau akhir taun aja.
udah 1,5 yrs living in bali. and sometimes still cant believe we are living in bali.
hehehe...feel surreal. gile ye, ude setaon lbh masih aje ngerasa surreal. hehehe...

waiting

mmmm...
lagi nunggu nih, nunggu what she'd do. 
nunggu dia bakalan cerita apa?
bakalan bilang apa?
will she be honest or not. 


i know life is about making decision(s). hope she made a wise one. 

a little rumble...just a little....

pernah ga ngerasain something you cant explain?
the feeling is so strong, but you simple cant describe it with words.
not a bad feeling juga. bukan perasaan ga enak like something bad gonna happen. 
no, not like that.


a bit this, a bit that.
MEH! 


the house is still a mess.....
camnya i need help...mulai cape beberes sendiri....ga maksimal since im not a full time housewife.
spending same amount of time in the office. 
haiya....

Perth Travel Note

So, we went to Perth to celebrate our 2nd wedding anniversary.


beli tiketnya sih udah dari february...nyari diskonan. hehehe...
i think kalo naik air asia top 4 hours is enough deh, dont think i can take more than 4 hrs. 
sempit, apa lagi kalo lagi sial dapet bule tinggi bener duduk di kursi belakang....rontok pinggangku!


Perth....
overall kecil banget ya kotanya. dikiterin jalan kaki juga bisa...hehehe...
on weekdays (except kamis) and weekend diatas jam 5 sore udah bingung mau ngapain. hihihi...
ada beberapa sih yang buka...tapi max jam setengah 8 aja. 
jam 6 sore jalanan udah kosong melompong, agak bingung nyariin mobil and orang2 pada kemana...hehehe....
palingan rame di james st, situ bisa sampe jam 2 pagi dan banyak makanan...


Subiaco....
so looking fwd ke station street markets. ngincer almond croissant-nya...super yummy! nyesel cuma makan sekali, bagi dua lagi...hik.
suka ama daerah subiaco. nemplok ke woollies disana. how i love woollies. ada kali 5 kali nemplok di woollies semalam disana...


Fremantle....
bay city. makan cicerello's. oke aja lah ya. suasananya yang enak. mandangin laut and boats sambil denger live music. 
fremantle juga kotanya lucu. kaya mainan. hihihi....kecil juga. alhasil, kita ga jadi naek bus tapi jalan kaki aja. had a ferris wheel ride. cekekekan....dodol!


overall, we had a nice trip. santaiiiiiii banget. tidur juga cukup, makan apa lagi...hehehe...


Thank God for the beautiful trip. and more importantly, thank God for the beautiful life and the great person to share life with.

aya aya wae

pengalaman baru jadi employer. 
orang admin ada yg berenti after 3 months. 
baru lewat trial dia. ya bagus lah ya, daripada gua yg berentiin..kudu bayar pesangon. heheheh...


menurut gua, dia masih terlalu idealis ya. fresh grad sih...gitu deh jadinya. belom tau dunia kerja itu kaya apa. betapa bedanya dunia kerja ama jaman skolah.
sedikit hal ga sejalan ama expectation or bayangan dia, uda ngabur...haiya...


oh well....time to find a better candidate!

a little this and that...

dikirimin video oncom. 
she recognizes me!! ahauehuae....so funny. 
"bo...bo...bo...bobo"
cuteness overloaded! haha...


oh...we changed the house lay-out. 
punya meja makan soalnya sekarang (yay!), tapi belom pernah skalipun dipake...hehehe...
it's a mini dining table. miniiii banget. murah pula. warnanya kaya yang gua mau pula. ya sudah lah la...
cukup lah for a couple years ahead. 


akhirnya apus kuteks di kaki setelah sebulan. jijay deh kuku kakinya gondrong gitu...ih...



4 more days until perth.
excited. yay!
belom pernah kesana soalnya. hehehe...itinerary is ready. packingnya belon. 


9 more days until jakarta.
yeeey! bakmi oh bakmiii.....
and of course...oncom!

banyak orang brengsek!
i feel sorry for one of my marketing. 
kesian aja. 
dia rajin kerjanya. usaha gitu loh. i know dia usaha. 
setelah (hampir) ada hasilnya...eehh diserobot orang lain!
brengseeek!
sebel aje gua...gak gampang loh bisnis ini...
i appreciate mereka yang kerja keras, yang usaha, dan yang mau sukses!
gua ga appreciate orang2 yg suka 'nyolong' hasil kerja keras orang lain!!
burn in hell!!!!!


kesal!

travel note.

went to HK-Shenzhen-Macau for a week last week (27 sept - 2 Oct 2011).


kudunya terbang dr cgk jam 1 pagi, 28 Sept 2011. but last minute di pilipin sono ada taifun, jadi lah kita semua dipindahin ke cathay which flying timenya 1 hr earlier and rutenya jkt lsg hk. dan gua pun jingkrak2 kegirangan. puji Tuhaaannn....soalnya dari sebelom brangkat udah males bener ngebayangin kudu transit di manila dulu 3 jem-an. eng ing eng...jadi lah kita sampe di hk 4 hrs earlier...hore!


thank God for the great weather on our first day in HK. ketemu poge and aiden. had lunch together di resto yg gua ga tau namanya apa. truuuss....nongkrong di coffee shop (lupa namanya apa; kelly/hellye brown) tapi enak. did a little shopping.
kayanya muter2 ampe lemes dah. mulai dari central, causeway bay. ngeliatin dari baju, spatu ampe elektronik. ga napsu ke ladies market. mahal sih. males. malem2 di causeway bay ujaaan....ga jadi deh ke sogo. huh!!!!!!! sebaaal! malah ke time square. huh! 
yang lain ke disneyland and ocean park. 


besokannya supposed to start the city tour at 8am, but too bad mother earth say otherwise. no city tour in the morning! she decided to hit hk with typhoon. haiya.....jadinya santai2 di hotel, jalan2 ke mall deket hotel yg dimana semua tokonya tutup....hahaha...T8 sih ye...
akhirnya jam 12 siang baru city tour dimulai...ujan2an pula...
went to avenue of the star ditemenin ujan plus angin kenceng. trus ke the peak, sepi pisan deh tu tempat, serasa milik sendiri. huhuhuuuuyy....
lunch at jumbo restoran pun tiada. hmm...pdhal seinget gua, disana itu lah tempat makan paling enak kalo ikut tur. oh well..... trus malemnya kita ke shenzhen. 


hotel di HK was nice, cuman jauhnya sebujung2 yah....tapi ada mtr, so oke lah ya...i dont mind...hihiihi....


hotel di shenzhen sih buluk, judulnya aja bintang 4...breakfastnya kaya losmen....hiiiiyy...
diajak ke toko obat....pake 'dipaksa' baca tlapak tangan ama sinseh...ga gua dengerin deh. males...ntar kecele suruh beli obat ampe 6 jeti....haih...tidak!
high light di shenzhen cuman lou wu aje...itu juga ga dapet banyak. tadinya mabok mo liat apa disana...ahahaha....dapet oleh2, ya lumayan deh...
shenzhen sih maju banget loh. jalanan cakep, taman2 kota rappiiiihh jali, gedong2 keren, ga ada tuh sampah bertebaran dimana2. padahal orang2nya not that discipline/nice/tau aturan. camnya pemerintah cina pinter aje. politiknya stabil sih ya, makanya banyak investor asing masuk and maju lah si shenzhen. ga kaya di endonesia ini...orang mao (bahasanye) ngasih duit ke pemerintah/penduduk endonesia malah dipersulit pake undang2 ini ono lah...repot! heran deh! ga pinter2! *kok jadi ngoceh2?*


then went to macau by ferry - i always love macau. nice. tempatnya kecil. gampang. 
taxi driver driving like mad! hehehe...ga peduli cuy di korsi blakang mo padet ato kaga. pas belok hajarrr ngebut...ahahahah....
love street foodnya. too bad masih banyak banget yg ga bisa bahasa inggris. pdhal macau itu one of the biggest tourism spot (for gambling), but as for me gua suka strolling di jalan2 kecil macau. 
influence portugisnya masih kenceng banget. seneng liatin nama2 jalannya walo kadang susah amet dibacanya...
mungkin gua suka macau karena influence portugisnya itu kali ya? serasa di eropah sana...heheheh...
kalo ada kesempatan balik ke macau lagi, pasti gua mau dah...ahahahahah....


jadwal balik dari macau ke manila trus jkt. tapi oh tapiiii....karena si taifun sayang, tak bisa lah kita terbang. di cancel lah pesawat ke manila itu. seumur2 baru pernah nih pesawat di cancel. 
jadi lah kita semua digiring kaya anak bebek ke ferry terminal untuk nyebrang ke hkia. dari hkia baru lah kita terbang ke manila. delay pula pesawat dari hk. jadi lah pesawat di manila nungguin kita sehingga doi ikutan delay juga. orang2 yg kena delay uda pada bt aje. sapa sih yang ga bt di delay ampe 2 jem??
lalu sampe lah kite di jkt jem 2 pagi. urus penginapan tim marketing, bobo lah kita jem 4 pagi. gua pake acara mandi dulu lagi. jijay kalo ga..lengket gitu. 


all in all...gua seneng liat tim marketing juga seneng. itu artinya kaga sia2 gitu ngeluarin duit. win win....hehehehhe....


anyway, ini travel note brantakan banget ya? heheheheheh....
sampai jumpa di travel note berikutnya (amiiinn)

septembeeeerrrr

september yah...
cepet yah...taun 2011 udah mau abis lagi ajee..


udah mau 2012 aje gitu. gua masih inget waktu masuk taun 2000. masih pake hp nokia 5110. hihihi....tu hp sih kuat. 


trus apa yah? 
lagi di kantor nih. 
hari ini baru bagi deviden. 3rd time in 2011. Thank God. bisa dibilang bisnis lancar. but cant compare apple to apple ama kantor kelapa gading yeeee...
tapi gua percaya we'll be here for a looooooooonnngg time :)


laluhhh....
oh! there's always a first time for eveything kan? kemaren sukses ngerokin pundak sendiri. item bo! angin bener dah. pundak tight bgt kemaren. i thought kolesterol. tapi pas dikerok langsung feeling so much better. haiya...ada2 aja deh....
weather been bad. ujan ecek2 trus langsung panas lagi...ihhh...menyebalkan.


si ganteng dekil banget deh. udah kudu mandi....gak demen bener liat dia dekil pisan. mandiin doonnnggg.....


mau ke ace, cari pompa dan kemoceng....


cao!

this is that random

kenapa there are some people yang unbelievably self centered?

orang lain dijadiin tameng. padahal dia yang punya keperluan. 

dia yang punya mau, tapi suruh orang lain yang ngomong? 

eneg kale!

anyway...i think i lost few of my friends. not losing contact, but losing friendship.

baru mikir aja. 

im well aware orang2 itu sibuk. punya urusan masing2. ga punya waktu to chit and chat. jadi semuanya sinking aja.....and then gone...

truuusss.....

i think i need something to do. jadi otak ga mikir yg aneh2...hehehe...

plenty to do domestically, tapi office wise....all done, all done. done!

ntar cuma pengen pulaaaannng....trus gosok bajuuuuu sambil nonton tipiii...trus tidooor. hehehe....

dikala matahari meredup

kutemui dirinya...

dikala matahari menghilang

dia datang menghampiri...

dikala senjak menyeruak

kulihat dia datang...

............

 

Trying on Blogger new interface. 
clean ya keliatannya. 


kemaren sempet baca2 posting yg lama. lucu2 juga ya...
dodol!


tadi pagi ke AVAC, sampe jam 7.55am. anddd...ga ada yg antrin sama skali. we were the first sampe  sana. gile, kalo di jkt sih orang2 udah pada antri bererot kalo mo apply visa. 
disini santai pisan kali ya orang2. jam 8.30am, tukang bakmi aja belom buka. di gading jem 6 pagi udah pada buka....susah jadinya tadi mo cari makanan...ahahauehuae...
palingan toko roti yang udah buka. itu juga ga napsuin. hmmm...


emang beda banget sih ya idup di bali ama idup di jkt. disini orang2nya jauh lebih santai, jauh lebih relax. cenderung keliatan males. hehehe....bawaan lokasi wisata kali ya? 


contohnyaa....noh, di bank! buset eh buset...mo nangiiiiis kalo inget ngantri di bank kemaren. 
udah tau rame nih yg antri, mereka kerja tetep kaya siput dong ah! pick up your phase people! orang punya urusan lain other than antri di bank! and yg lebih parahnyaaaa....kemaren 1 klien buka tabungan, yg layain 4 freaking customer service. sedangkan orang di teller cuman 2 and yg antri sampe nomor 40an aje gitu! buset! pengen gua toyorin deh atu2...gemes!


on a very random notes, 
i think its time for me to go to hairdresser again. sudah gondrong. 
pengennya sih tahan2in sampe akhir september.


laluu...what is next?


oh! bedoaaa...semoga application disetujuin. ameeeeeeeeennn....and dapet longer length period of time. ameenn....

ga pengen kerja loh...

hawa liburan udah kenceng bener prasaan. ato hawa males yg lbh kenceng?heheheh

on a random note, 

i think i need to pay a visit to the hairdresser soon dah..

and need to clean the house....especially the shower. hiiiiy....

i have this bentol on my face from time to time. biasanya selalu diobatin, tapi this time males pake obat. i want to fight it without obat. so far oke loh...emang recoverynya lebih lama, tapi i think those bentol are coming off. hore!

how i miss oncom!!!!

hug hug kiss kiss

dut dut dut....

life is about happiness.

happiness can come out of any forms... tangible and intangible.

i, of course, am wanna be happy.

the ultimate question: are you happy? am i happy?

happiness means:

.eating ice cream with my love one.

.holiday.

.laughing my ass off with my bestie.

.watching cartoons.

.taking picture and be taken picture of.

.going shopping and get a great bargain.

.cleaning the house and enjoying the results.

.getting my hair cut.

.hugging my love ones.

.listen to jazzy tunes.

.seeing oncom.

...and i'm sure my list of happiness will grow and keep growing...!

i am happy. i decided to be happy....hehehe....

anyways...

don't feel like working today.

badan pada sakit. kemaren pijet, tapi kok paginya kaya orang abis digebukin.

sakit pisan!

this post is sooo random yeh?

hehehe...

kemaren grout the whole house. bersiinnya setenga mateeek!

kena deh dimarahin. hehehe....

lu lu pade!

lu!

kenapa lu tolol banget jadi orang? udah jelas-jelas puluan taon gak pernah dihargain.

selalu disakitin, selalu dikecewain. tapi tetep aje lu cinta mati ama die.

lu bahkan ga peduli orang lain, yang lu pikirin cuma die dan elu aje. selama lu bareng, lu hepi.

mao lu diinjek-injek kek, mao lu diludahin kek, mao lu digoblok-goblokin kek...lu juga ga peduli. yang paling penting lu bisa bareng ama die.

mana pernah sih lu mikirin perasaan orang laen? mana pernah? bahkan orang2 yang kudunya bener2 lu peduliin juga lu ga peduliin. yang lu peduliin kan cuma lu dan die ye? pokoke bareng ama die.

lu selalu ada buat die. selalu nyelametin die dari ketolol2an die, selalu ngelindungin die dari dosa2 die. hebat sih lu! sampe kapan mo jadi Tuhan? mungkin lu pikir lu hepi ye. seneng bisa bareng die walo lu sama skali ga pernah dihargain dan selalu jadi babu. jadi orang yang kerja keras dan diperes tenaga dan duitnya.

lu 'royal' banget sama die. berapa pun jumlahnya lu ga pusingin kalo buat nolongin die. awal2nya emang lu gak rela, lu ngomel2. tapi kita sama2 tau akhirnya lu akan rela, karena dia balik lagi ke elu.

gua heran, sama yang laen lu pelit banget. buat ongkosin acara terakhir orang yg kudunya penting banget didalem idup lu lu gak mau. kalo ga ditagih, ga bakalan tuh lu ngeluarin duit. lu bahkan ngingkarin janji, bilang kalo mo keluarin duit buat acara terakhir dia tapi nyatanya gak tuh...karena dia ga ngungkit janji lu, lu diem2 aje...PELIT BANGET LU!!!!

lu pernah mikir ga orang2 yang selalu ada buat elu? yang bela2in idup dia buat elu? mana pernah ya? orang2 itu ga pernah ada ya. kan yang ada cuma die. dunia lu isinya cuma lu berdua aje.

lu!!

kenapa lu bajingan banget? you value yourself too much.

lu mah ga peduli orang laen. yang penting lu bisa bikin dosa sebanyak2nya dan nanti tinggal meraung2 minta tolong ke 'tuhan' lu aja ya. gampang kan! jalan keluar lu cuma 1. itu ajah. gua yakin, lu tau kalo lu ngemis2 dia pasti nolongin elu. emang lu orang paling bangsat yang pernah gua temuin.

dari dulu lu paling hobi nyelakain orang laen. ngorbanin orang laen demi dapet semua yang lu mao. kurang bangsat apa coba lu? jangan harap ya gua mau nolongin elu. not in a million years. lu telpon kalo ada maonya doang.

gengsi lu kegedean padahal lu tuh ga punya apa2 tau gak? lu ga punya apa2 yang bisa dibanggain. lu kira lu cari duit? kaga tuh, lu cuma tau buang2 duit aja.

lu cuma mau seneng aja. ga kerja tapi selalu bisa beli apa aja yang lu mao. bisa jalan2 tiap taon. trus mamer ke orang2 kalo lu udah pernah kesono sini. enak ya idup lu. semuanya dapet.

lu tuh tukang tipu, ga lebih dari itu di mata gua.

aer mata lu tuh aer mata buaya. semua palsu, semua boong. semua penyesalan lu itu cuma sesaat, mentok juga setengah taon. abis itu setannya balik lagi.

lu tuh dramaaaa banget. kalo sakit teaduh2 kaya orang udah mo mati. tapi sama sekali ga ada usaha mau sembuh. cuma drama aje. aus peratian lu mah. tengil!

gua sih benci banget sama elu dari dulu. ga pengen ada urusan ama elu. jadi ya lu-lu gua-gua aja deh. liat muka lu aje gua males, apa lagi disuruh ngomong. duh...ga ada urusan deh ama lu mah.

lu lu pade emang cocok. satu si buta, satu si bangsat.

klop deh!

enjoy your world. don't (DO NOT) count me in. i'm outta there!

i miss...

.1810 #611

.kopp's custard

.blizzard

.pile of snow

.studying on a Saturday morning

.working on a project til wee in the morning

.wearing winter assemble

.my blue desk which facing the window overlooking the city

.my simple life

.writing a poem (mana tu buku ya?)

.....

waaawww...!

baru ngeh kalo ternyata i've been blogging since jan 2006?

udeh 5 taon aje gitu? waaaw....

gak berasa ya?

kayanya gua kebanyakan mikir ya jadi orang.

yang ada diotak semalem sebelom tidur: ac samsung, microwave panasonic, stabilizer matsuyama, bola warna warni bounce out, jumlah cash flow...

yea...im THAT random. haiya....

gak ngerti...

katanya jaman sekarang cari kerja susah.

banyak orang ga punya kerjaan dan cari kerjaa.

tapi ga ngerti kenapa banyak orang juga yang daftar kerja, dipanggil buat interview.

dateng interview, trus diproses ke interview ke dua. bilangnya mau dateng.

tapi di hari H, batang idungnya ga keliatan. ditelponin ga diangkat.

nah kalo kaya gitu, ngapain cari kerja? ga punya insiatif sopan santun untuk ngabarin juga.

maunya apa? udah ga perlu duit ya? ga perlu cari kerja?

gua ga ngerti maunya apa sih?

kalo memang terima kerjaan yang lain sih gak apa2, tapi jangan menghilang begitu aja.

buang2 waktu orang kan?

heran!

kalo begitu bukannya namanya gak appreciate orang ya? ga menghargai kesempatan yang dia punya sekarang? aneh....

ato mungkin emang belom jodoh juga kali apa ya? i dont know. kesel aja gitu.

o well!

on looking for an employee....

my first time ever looking for an employee.

apa sih yang paling penting dari seorang calon pegawai?

skills?

attitude?

to me it's attitude. iya, skills are important. tapi attitude lebih penting.

as long as orangnya mau belajar, pasti bisa.

gitu deh...hihihihi....

mari berdoa semoga kita ga salah pilih...amiiiiinnn....

pengen pulang....

males loh di kantor. i just have nothing to do at the moment.

looking forward to jakarta tomorrow.

waktu kok jalannya lama banget ya hari ini?

kuku udah mulai panjang, tanggung kalo mo potong. nanti aja deh di hot nails.

cant wait to have beautiful nails....hehehehe...

lapar. tapi gak tau mau makan apa. bosaaaaaaaaannn...

Inisiatif

Yang namanya Inisiatif itu bisa sangat membantu.

tapi bisa juga bikin ribet.

inisiatif in a proper portion can be real good.

lagi empet. seempet-empetnya.

kenapa ga punya inisiatif? kenapa musti disuruh?

why on earth???!!?

and kenape sensi banget? kalo soal diri sendiri aje loe, sensi...ke orang laen mana sensi sih lu?

kupret!

modnar

i found watering the plants is therapeutic. it slows me down. it gives me time to think and to enjoy myself.

i'm excited coz i'm leaving for jakarta in a few days.

i love wearing shawl. it gives me comfort and warm.

i miss my colorful nails. gonna have them soon! yey!

i finally found a hairdresser here in bali. yehew!

lusting on...

leather nude pump and or flats.

not sure what to write, since i have no clue what i'm feeling now.

....and that is weird!

i think something is different with my body. i think i'm not 100% healthy yet.

something is missing. something different!

tiny headache. too tiny i decided to ignore it.

anyhow, back in the office...

why can't you.....?

be more responsible?

paid more attention to what i said?

be more reliable and get things done without me keep reminding you what to do?

have the initiative to do more without me pushing you around to do stuff?

WHY?

barusan iseng baca2 entry blog yang lama...

tapi somehow bacanya things yang bikin gua keki dulu...

can really feel the emotion loh...ahauhuhauhea....

hari ini i feel oke. maksudnya bodynya gitu loh...

punggungnya getting better. ga pegel2 lagi

i think karena mandi air dingin malem2 kali ya? jadi kaku gitu...

daku menua...oh no!

barusan melototin cash flow. haduh! saya stress....

almost no more pipelines? eeeeekkk!! bahaya ini bahaya iniiii....

tapi saya percayaaaaa Tuhan itu a provider God, akan dicukupin...amin, amin, amiiinn...

by the way, i think i should put my braces back on. males deh bobo pake braces. ganggu gitu...

ah ntar ganti sprei ah....

masak apa ya ntar malem?

having a bad day....

yeap!

i declare today is the bad ass day....

reason(s)? you mas ask.

no reason(s) at all.

but the mood hasn't been pretty since an hour ago.

mau marah marah, mau ngoceh ngoceh. pengen nampolin orang.

mau mengumpat pake semua bahasa di dunia kalo bisa...

gah!

everything got in my nerve.

mau mesem aje susye ni ari.

and to top of it, i have nothing to do. nothing to distract this mind. numpuk lah ye....

on trying something new

tried snorkeling yesterday at Mengiat Beach, nusa dua.

i have to pad my shoulder for trying something new.

i'm not an adventurous person. i don't like taking risks. in a fact, i refused to take any risks!

which lead to...i am a boring person. hehehehhe....

awal-awalnya gak enjoy sih. ya mungkin karena freak out duluan. kok napas aja susah bener...air laut masuk mulut mulu...cape deh...

trus kok rasanya cape banget. mungkin karena uda panik duluan. orang lain kok kayanya santai banget, kenapa kok gua ga bisa ya?

udah almost gave up! udah mo balik to the beach aja and sit down!

but again, i decided to give it another shot. and im glad!

coba lagi deh and this time pake kaki kodok itu loh....and belajar napas lagi. gak berapa lama bisa kok...i enjoy malaaaahhh....hahauhahua...

too excited....liat ikan tunjuk sana, tunjuk sini...hehehe...noraknya ampun2an...ahuehuae...

im ready for tulamben! heheheheh....

thank God!

again

kan lagi kan?

terlalu banyak mikir.

cape de....

the random me

bosan ya?

not sure what to do. nothing to do juga.

all done. all beres!

sometimes i miss writing....

kalo baca blog orang lain soooo interesting ya.

how come i cant be that creative?

hehehhe...oh well...

lagi mikir mau buat butter cookies...hihihih...

tapi ga punya cetakan yak!

bahan2nya gampang banget,....make from scratch or beli yg udah siap bake aja ya?

from scratch mungkin lbh seru ya...

Saturday

hari sabtu gini di kantor.

and honestly, i got nothing to do. finished it all yesterday.

yep, masih mikir hari sabtu gua ga kerja. so diselesain semua kerjaannya.

haiya....

ooo weeeelllll.....

the BIG three-oh

three-oh...

cant believe im thirty years old now.

wow!

time to move to another level.

time to think way ahead and wiser, to plan way better.

time to control self better and forgive more.

learn to be better.

learn to appreciate life even more.

one year older, one more year to live and learn! here's to turning 30!

Thank you God, for everything!

Monday Madness

Back to Monday, people!

stupid consultant acting up, AGAIN!

jelas-jelas ada salah, tapi kok diem-diem aja kalo ga ditanya.

thank God saya curious (baca: kepo), coba kalo engga....bakalan diem2 aje die...

nyebelin yeee....

anyway, still cant get over the gratisan thingy.

that was rude!

you barely knew me. never really talk. ga sopan!

truus...hari ini sibuk sih kayanya...

freaking out

hell yeah i'm freaking out.

sebenernya i know, i need to. i mean, everything is gonna be okay.

cuma ya...my nature itu panikan...piye toh?

i just have to believe. yakin dan percaya that everything is gonna be okay.

and it's not a waste. it's an investment. amiiiiinnn....

aih....

annoying!

keseeell!

ga pengen dealing with tax issues!

ga perna punya pengalaman soal tax, all i know cuma dulu urus tax personal ajaaa...

ga pernah urus tax perusahaan.

yang lebih annoying lagi, tax consultant-nya ignorant!

jelas jelas judulnya 'consultant', ya dia harus consult gua dong...tapi ini gak tau apa2...

taunya cuma terima duit doang!

pale lu benjut!

ini itu ga tau jelas duduk permasalahannya, bisanya cuma nyalah2in orang aja...

you are dealing with the wrong person!!! as*hole!

semua maen digampangin aja...jidat loe!

emang orang pajek tolol apa?bego lu...gua aja yg notabene ga ngarti pajek bisa mikir prinsipnya udah salah...gimana sih?onyon bener! kesel!!!

i have no interest talking to him at all!

males!

belom lagi citibank yg super lelet! susah amat sih kirim kartu baru ke alamat yg baru?

dari tgl 4 april bilangnya udah dikirim, lah 2 minggu kemudian belom sampe juga tu kartu?

yang ngirim orang buta nyetir ya?

kesel, kesel, keseeell....

ples, AC rusak...duile panas bener ni di ruangan...hiks....

ga tau kapan beres servicenya....

trus i panic over his bad decisions...*sigh*

mati lah...lemes...

the only thing yg oke itu rasanya cuma bau minyak telon di kantor, yg si peni pake....

such a morning!

My very 1st car

punya cita cita haruuuuuus punya mobil. gak tau mobil apa, tapi haruuus punya mobil, padahal belom bisa nyetir. terakhir belajar nyetir umur 15 taon. hehehe...

jadi, pulang kuliah dulu...first thing i did itu belajar setir dan bikin sim.

ngimpi punya ngimpi dulu pengen punya honda jazz. tapi apa daya duitnya ga cukup (maklum deh abis pake duit tabungan).

akhirnya...dengan modal nekad and minta ditemenin dombleh, jadi lah saya beli karimun item keluaran taun 2003 yang harganya cukup menguras seluruh isi celengan di bank. nasib, nasib....tapi gak apa-apa, demi kemandirian di kelak hari.

abis punya mobil, mau gak mau harus belajar setir dong? mubajir kalo engga. tapi emang sudah bertekad harus bisa nyetir. gak mau naek angkot, bukannya sombong loh...tapi tingkat kriminalitas di jakarta kan tinggi pisan. jadi kalo masih bisa melindungi diri sendiri ya saya lakonin.

awal-awal masih ditemenin. mostly ama dombleh and kendi. mereka lah orang yang berjasa ngajarin gua nyetir. dari super culun, harus liat dikala ganti gigi, anjluk2an pas angkat kopling sampe akhirnya gapeee (istilahnya merem juga bisaaa...jieee...)

rute biasanya dari rumah ke kantor (kuningan) lewat casablanca (dulu macetnya ga kaya neraka model sekarang ini...hiih) ato rumah ke mester.

saban sabtu pagi si kendi dateng ke cawang, just for nemenin gua nyetir dari cawang ke kuningan. sepi kan noh sabtu, gak ada yg kerja...cuma kantor indihe aje yang ngewajibin kita kerja rodi di hari sabtu!

nah si karimun itu, i named him Roti. secara kata mak gua kotak bener tu mobil! tapi ga pernah nyebut nyebut roti. kayanya gua lupa gua namain dia. hehehehhe....

tapi yang paling penting, tu mobil amat sangat gua rawat!! saban minggu pagi gua mandiin luar dalem. gak boleh bawa orang banyak-banyak. disayang banget deh!

si karimun sempet jadi the only car in the house. jadi suka ada yg pinjem, walo dalem ati gua kaga rela. soalnya yg minjem suka jorok!

selain for me, dia juga jasanya banyaaakk banget buat orang lain....

1. sering jadi mobil angkut barang dagangan nyokap, sampe terseok seok shock breakernya (!!)

2. pernah jadi mobil angkut barang dagangan kendi and gua. belanja ke asemka, diisiin ama blanjaan segambreng tapi ga seberat seragam yeee....namanya juga jualan stationary!

3. pernah jadi mobil penyelamat mlb and family di kala gading banjir. gua tutupiiiin tuh semua karpet saking takutnya sendal2 becek sembarangan masuk mobil.

4. pernah jadi mobil angkut pas clubbing. perna juga gua nyetir sedikit tipsy.

he's been there for me through the thick and the thin.

bela2in balik nama dia jadi nama gua pribadi. B 2341 HI used to be B 2553 OW.

disaat gua bener2 gak punya duit, gak pernah sekalipun terlintas di kepala gua mau jual dia. disaat bener2 tong pes, gua masih bela2in beli bensin, sparepart, and service (thank you mami pau for the special price!)

he was there when i laughed my ass off, i cried my eyes out, i prayed, i sang and danced (when driving along of coz), i ditilang polisi siaul....

namanya juga manusia or in this case barang ya....pasti ga perfect. dia sempet punya problem dinamo. kalo distarter suka gak mau, accu maot, trus selang bensin ke mesin bocor (untung masih bisa diakalin pake lem besi...hehe)

regardless, dia still my best car!

i took a damn good care of him!

bahkan when i decided to let him go, gua gak mau kompromi soal harga. it was either you take it or leave it! and i prayed semoga they took a damn good care of him!

pernah liat dia kalo diacara kumpul keluarga (secara yang beli sepupu sendiri). sedih, miris, dan celingak celinguk ke dalem mobilnya. pengen liat dia udah diapain sih? rapih ga sih? disayang ga sih? diurus ga sih?

intinya, i still love him! he'll always be in my heart *lebay ye...bodo ah!*

he was my very first car....

apa kabarnya dia sekarang ya?

hiks hiks hiks hiks....

hari ini....

jadi penghuni lantai 3...sendirian...

peni and pak michael tumbang gara2 flu...

semua kerjaan udah gua selesain...hhhmm....

things i did in the office today (other than my normal job desc):

1. stretching - need to start yoga-in...soooonn!

2. cut my hair - yep, cut my hair. did it in jakarta, but not too fond of the result. managed to make it look better.

3. thinking of what should be doing for the house, especially the kitchen. haiyo! ga mau pake raknya ah...jijay!

dot dot dot dot dot.....

this and that!

crappy!

rumah kok rasanya ga beres2....cape aja jadi the one whose being positive all the time.

had my break down last night! nangis ga, marah iya!

couldnt do laundry properly! what the heck???!?!

dimana lagi yg salah?apa lagi yang salah?

most of the time i feel nobody to count on. nobody to help me think and actually do stuff.

bikin marah. kesel. emosiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii...........

gua yang harus mikir, gua yang harus ingetin, gua yang harus dorong2,....gila kali!

gua punya bates kaleee!

camnya ga ada niat to do stuff. to make the house better.

gak mikir2 apa2.... or kalo mikir juga cuma ngomong doang...ga ada tuh tindak lanjutnye!

hih!

cape de!

Lent

Today is Ash Wednesday.

Lent starts.

What should I give up?

Meat? Sweets? Facebook? The Internet? Coffee?

WHAT?

on pictures taking

i like taking pictures but have no interest editing them.

i like good raw pictures.

set a challenge for myself a while ago - use a pocket camera to take good (or great) pictures.

no need the great device(s). just 1 pocket camera.

i think it's not about the great device or the great technology.

its about the skill, the perception, the angle, and the mood (to me yes, mood is a big thing).

and yep, i'm continuing and enjoying the challenge.

remembering you....

sometimes i forget that you are gone...

like now, like today.

it brought up tears.

how are you up there?

great i suppose....yea, i'm sure. :)

gak sengaja nemu your email back in 2006.

you asked me how i feel the day after mlb got hitched.

how ade felt.

you care, you always cared...

aku lupa mami udah pergi....sering banget lupa...

aku inget mami masih ada di kew....ato lagi ke dokter.

sedih...tapi i'm happy for you. no more pain, you can take a good rest while enjoying your work, tabungan buat akherat....

and i know, i'll be okay :)

uk and ut....

Wrote this on 20 Jun 2006

aku tahan kantuk
sampe ngangguk ngangguk
kerjaan bertumpuk tumpuk
pasang muka kusuk
aku belaga sibuk
aku celingak celinguk
liat orang2 pada sibuk
aku makin terpuruk
dalam keadaan yang buruk
ingin mengamuk
menghantam kelabu hiruk pikuk
aku ngoceh sampe terbatuk batuk
menahan murka yang makin terbentuk
jancuk!
ayo semangat jangan mengkerut
biar jalan di depan licin berlumut
biar pandangan penuh kabut
jangan sampai terhasut
ayo maju terus pantang kusut
mari panjatkan doa sambil berlutut
semoga kita tidak lagi takut
menghadapi hidup yang penuh kemelut

Ps. I miss writing.

the importance of a warning

after the boss called and warned 2 of our sales people, today both came to the office and brought some new listings.

as much as i really want to let them go, i still appreciate their effort.

so let's pray that this isn't temporary. let's pray that they will take this job seriously.

i know not all people can do what they do now (see me, i tried for 4 months, i couldn't do it).

i miss my legacy....

my legacy = dagangan stationary and school bag.

it's almost that time of year again.

i really miss doing all the shopping, the thinking, the wrapping, the labeling, and most importantly...i miss feeling the excitement of selling those stuffs.

i guess i have to pass on the legacy yea?

i hope whoever yang lanjutin my legacy would do such a good job.

please do not disappointed me. i built it and too bad i can't continue. i would if i could.

hikhikhikhikhik....

moment like this...

today is the day when i miss my blog, but have no idea what to write about.

i guess, just wrote down whatever pop in my head, ya?

sudden crave for sushi!

a bit hungry, maybe that's why.

i wanna eat.....

*so randooommm*

i miss my blog sometimes.

i miss writing now and then.

just like now...writing about everything under the sky.

anyway, found pepsi ice cucumber (yep, ice cucumber).

they were gonna launched it back in 2007 in Japan.

don't think it was a big hit, yea?

wonder how it taste?

weird.

i know i should work on my stuff since it's almost the end of the month.

but...i have no mood laaahh....

chinese new year is next week.

decided to spend CNY in bali rather than going back to jakarta.

used to be very, very excited abt CNY. not anymore (most likely becoz im not longer eligible receiving that red envelopes *hik*)

i need travelling. now, i wanna go to korea. eat, eat, eat, eaaattt....

also japan...and yes, to eat, eat, eat, eaaattt....

okay, got my power back now...time to get busy...

here, there, and everywhere

rain just stopped.

sky still gloomy.

fine with that.

got nothing to do.

finished everything.

so how?

what to do?

bla blehe bloho blihiiiiii....

so bored.

lately, feeling so bored.

here, almost got no life.

i think i'd lost my sanity if i have no tv cable.

thank God for tv cable.

can't stand watching local channel.

tired. yea, for no apparent reason.

went to ubud yesterday. 1st black and white trial.

not so great. so so.

haven't got a chance to review the result.

not looking forward either.

but! i shall say i love starbucks ubud!

nice atmosphere.

would love to come back for a longer coffee/tea session.

nyepi mau kabur kemana ya?

Vivian Maier

Cant get enough of Vivian Maier's pictures.

kadang sampe agak merinding liat foto2nya...

keren!

ampe terinspirasi mau belajar foto black and white.

these questions been running in my head:

how to capture great pictures without using great camera?

how to make the most out of my pocket camera?

jadi pengen foto foto.

but i want a city setting. not landscape.

dimane ye?

heeehhh??!?!

Typed this yesterday.

Honestly, I don’t understand.

Kok ada orang ga tau diri model gitu?

Ke kantor ga pernah, menghasilkan pun engga sama sekali…eh giliran ada undangan meeting trus makan2 dia dateng dengan santainya dan tentunya pake alesan ‘dateng telat’, so she can skip the actual meeting and join the festive. Kaya ga ada apa2 aja gitu. Apa gak malu?

Trus bisa dengan pd nya bilang dia harus diingetin ke kantor. HELLLOOOOWWW???!?!?! Cari duit kudu diingetin? Sama sekali GAK masuk akal! Kalo mau bela diri mbok ya pinteran sedikit. Jangan tolol2 amat lah! If I were the bos, I’d fired her on the spot! That’s ridiculous! Mana ada orang cari duit kudu diingetin? Emang makan juga lu kudu diingetin? Stupid!

I’m pretty sure, gak lama dia balik kok. She haas no steady income. Gak punya kerjaan tetap. Cuma cari free lunch aja. Lumayan kan dapet free lunch di resto yg ok. Geez….bener2 ga masuk akal! Gak ngerti jalan pikiran dia apa? Ga punya otak kali ye? Ga punya urat malu juga! Bener deh….malu2in banget!

oh well....