Wednesday, May 30, 2007

scattered....

tadi ada razia di deket buaran....
me got stopped by 2 different polices on the same spot...stupid!

makan pempek2 barusan...kok mendadak sakit perut ye?

got my hair cut...aseeeekkk....
dibayarin nyokap....lebih aseeekk lageehh!!kamsia maaaa....

ke gading....

otak mampet!
hati butek!

lalalalala.....

tadi nyanyi2 laik krezih di kamar....sendirian....seru...

nulis-nulis...banyaakk banget...

dapet duit dadakan....thx god....ga gede sih....but still...euehue...duit bebeh!

everytime i hold my niece in my arms, i want a baby of my own....
pengen married, punya rumah tangga sendiri, punya anak....hhheeemmm....

banyak nyamuk nih...digigitin ga jelas gini...

besok main skating...

mulai ga kenal ama orang yang dulu rasanya gua kenaaalll banget....ooo well.....

yang terjadi biarlah terjadi...

pengen liburan....keluar kota....yang jaaauuuhhhh....

jadi suka warna pink....ghehehhehe


Monday, May 28, 2007

5 Ways God Uses Problems

I think this is a good reading....please enjoy.... :)

1. God uses problems to DIRECT you.
Sometimes God must light a fire under you to get you moving. Problems often point us in a new direction and motivate us to change. Is God trying to get your attention? "Sometimes it takes a painful situation to make us change our ways." Proverbs 20:30

2. God uses problems to INSPECT you.
People are like tea bags...if you want to know what's inside them, just drop them into hot water! Has God tested your faith with a problem? What do problems reveal about you? "When you have many kinds of troubles, you should be full of joy, because you know that these troubles test your faith, and this will give you patience." James 1:2-3

3. God uses problems to CORRECT you.
Some lessons we learn only through pain and failure. It's likely that as a child your parents told you not to touch a hot stove. But you probably learned by being burned. Sometimes we only learn the value of something...health, money, a relationship... by losing it. "It was the best thing that could have happened to me, for it taught me to pay attention to your laws." Psalm 119:71-72

4. God uses problems to PROTECT you.
A problem can be a blessing in disguise if it prevents you from being harmed by something more serious. Last year a friend was fired for refusing to do something unethical that his boss had asked him to do. His unemployment was a problem - but it saved him from being convicted and sent to prison a year later when management's actions were eventually discovered. "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good... Genesis 50:20

5. God uses problems to PERFECT you.
Problems, when responded to correctly, are character builders. God is far more interested in your character than your comfort. Your relationship to God and your character are the only two things you're going to take with you into eternity. "We can rejoice when we run into problems... they help us learn to be patient. And patience develops strength of character in us and helps us trust God more each time we use it until finally our hope and faith are strong and steady." Romans 5:3-4

Here's the point:
God is at work in your life - even when you do not recognize it or understand it. But it's much easier and profitable when you cooperate with Him.

....couldn't sleep just yet....

...without him...
this world I have been living seems and feels so empty....
...without him...
this soul is lost...
...without him...
I cannot breath
...without him...
I lost my grip
...without him...
this heart lost its beat
...without him...
I must survived on my own!!

Sunday, May 27, 2007

kulalui akhir minggu ini dengan berpikir....

sedih banget....
baru bener2 nyadar kalo dia itu bagian dari hidupku....
bagian yang besar...sangat besar....
bagian yang dalam...sangat dalam...
bagian yang berarti...sangat berarti...

*you are a part of me that I cannot erase...ever!*
I miss you, with all my heart.....

sigh....


Saturday, May 26, 2007

heheheheheeee....

Ya Tuhan...
Kalo dia memang jodohku...
Dekatkanlah...

Ya Tuhan...
Kalo dia bukan jodohku...
Jodohkanlah...

Ya Tuhan...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain...
Putuskanlah... Jodohkanlah denganku...

Ya Tuhan...
Kalau dia sudah milik orang lain...
Berikanlah orang lain itu jodoh yang lain...
Jodohkanlah dia denganku...

Ya Tuhan...
Bila dia memang benar-benar bukan jodohku...
Jangan sampai dia dapet jodoh yang lain
Lalu jodohkanlah denganku...

Ya Tuhan...
Bila memang kami tidak berjodoh...
Biarkanlah kami terbengkalai tanpa jodoh...
Lalu jodohkanlah kami...

Amin.

*kocak banget...thanks to the above 'prayer' i can laugh today*

as simple as....

I HATE YOU!
yes, you!

this morning i feel....

laper - didn't have my dinner last night

cranky - this is the time of the month

sebel - sisa yang kemaren

mumet - mau kluar rumah aje....

Friday, May 25, 2007

puyeng nih....

lagi sebel...
yes, aku lagi sebel...
mao jitakin orang....
nendang juga boleh....kalo ada yang rela ditendang...heuheuhue...

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glepak!
mau jalan2 suka2 jidat...mao jalan pake jidat juga boleh kalo bisa....
lalalalala..

aseli ga jelas banget...eheuheu...

padahal....

Padahal…
Dia pergi ga jauh….Cuma nyebrangin pulau jawa aja….tapi rasanya dia pergi jaaaauuuuhhhh banget….
Padahal….
Dia pergi ga lama….Cuma 3 hari aja….tapi rasanya dia pergi laaammmmaaa banget…
Padahal…
Blom lama ngobrol ama dia….baru kemaren…tapi rasanya udah laaammmaa banget ga ngobrol…

Aneh!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

this is out of the blue....

If spring follows winter,
if a rainbow follows the storm,
if morning follows the night,
then happiness must follow sorrow.

Don't lose hope.
Things will get better!

*thanks God....for eveything*

hari ini....

was okay....
well, it was good....
ga banyak mikir yang aneh2...cuma mikirin gimana caranya dapet duit banyak!hueheuhue...bloon!

i miss coffee.....duhhh...ngajubileh tiap cium bau-nya....iler ampe luber2 gitu....hikkkss....

Monday, May 21, 2007

.....

selamat tinggal cinta
semoga kita bertemu di lain hari
dan bila kita tak berjumpa
kuatkan kaki ini untuk berjalan lagi
bangkitkan semangat jiwa
tetapi bila kita bertemu lagi
semoga kita menjadi satu nyawa....

Sunday, May 20, 2007

M A L E S


males ngapa2in...
males ngomong...
males diskusi...
males disalahin lagi...
males nyalahin diri sendiri lagi...
males dicurigain....
males disebelin...
males dimarahin...
males mikir...

males males males males males males males males....

JLEB!*shutting down my world*

Friday, May 18, 2007

2 things....

one,
yesterday, we found out that Crispy Kreme's white chocolate donought tastes so DAMN good!!chocolate fudgenya itu lohhhh.....waaaaaa.....

two,
kemaren waktu lagi mau makan di food court kan nyariin mas-mas yg bersiin meja....clingak clinguk...ehh tiba2 ada cowo bilang gini, "TANTE, kalo mau minta angkat sama yang pake baju item!"
HAH???TANTEE???do i look that old?perasaan kaga...dandanan juga bisa aja...cuma pake kaos polo and no make up at all....dunia gila kali!

yahh begitu lah....

26 years of me ....

I supposed to be excited today....
I supposed to be happy today...

instead...

I cannot wait until this day is over....FAST(er) please...



Thursday, May 17, 2007

it's a matter of time....

In this hurt time, I’m down on my knees and pray…
That someday we will be together again….
It’s just a matter of time…God’s time….


ada yang bilang begini ...

"Kesedihan dan kerinduan hanya terasa selama yang kamu inginkan dan menyayat sedalam yang kamu izinkan, yang terberat adalah bukan mengatasi kesedihan dan kerinduan, tapi bagaimana belajar darinya…”
16.05.2007 via sms
thanks ya!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

5 rules to be happy!


Remember the five simple rules to be happy:
1. Free your heart from hated.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

No one can go back and make a brand new start.
Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on!

When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you. When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means .... There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realise your worth.

The measure of love is when you love without measure.
In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go, the chance might never come your way again.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Call Me Irresponsible - Michael Buble

This is another great album by Michael Buble.
I love the song collection.
Some of them relates to my current situation in life.
DANG!
Masih sebel kalo inget konser Michael Buble yang di cancel gara2 bom Bali taon 2005 kemaren….sebaalll!!
Padahal tiket udah ditangan tuh….coba kalo ga ada itu bom…pasti gua uda nonton Mr. Buble!! I love you Mr. Buble!!!!
Well, mungkin gua ga bisa nonton dia sekarang….kali2 aja nanti yah….amiiiinnn…


Thanks to teti yang beliin CD-nya.....

Sabtu Malam di Bar Capung


The Place: Dragonfly Bar

The Day and Date: Saturday, 12 May 2007

The Time: 11 pm-ish

The Participants: Andi, Kendi, Olwin, and I.

The Ride: Silky Silver Met. Swift GL (correct me if I’m wrong)

The Drinks: 1 Baileys Single, 1 Cointreau Single, 1 Long Island Tea, 1 Strikes Back (1 dozen shot), 1 Urban Sector (1 dozen shot), 1 Evian

The Food: 1 Fried Squids *lirik yang mesen…defeat the purpose of clubbing nih!*

There we were arrived at the Dragonfly around 11 pm-ish…almost 11:30 I guess.
The crowd wasn’t that packed just yet. We ordered ourselves a drink; exclude Andi since he was the driver. Thanks for being so responsible. J

We ordered 1 dozen shot…ada yang semaput, aer mata naek, nutupin mulut pake tissue *nunjuk2 perempuan yang pake baju biru semalem*…padahal baru minum dikit banget….iikkhh…bikin maluu!!!
Her defense sih katanya nihhh….katanya nihh…dia bilang thanks to me dia jadi trauma ama alcohol gara2 on her bachelorette night dia dicekokin alcohol ama gua….hueuehueue…
Andi minum dikit banget….1 cocktail and setengah shot…hihihi…kan supirr..kudu nyetirrr….ga boleh mabok donnnggg….
Olwin minum banyak aje…tapi dia ga mabok!ah…dunia emang ga adil!!masi hyper iya tu anak…ga sopan!
I drank lumayan banyak….10 shots kayanya ada deh…gila juga….tipsy tentunya….

We (at least I) had fun last night. I danced like I never danced before (ternyata stamina gua ok juga). I laughed and cried my heart out.
Semalem seru banget…haven’t had such a great time in a loooonnggg time…..

Pagi ini puyeng puyeng dikit…ehuehue….kacau deh….tapi sekarang udah oke lagi kok…besok back to work….cari duit lagi…

I thank all the participants for a great night! Makasih, makasih and makasih….

Saturday, May 12, 2007

I made a mistake


I MADE A MISTAKE!

I need to make things right!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

jadi sedih....

lagi browsing friendster.....
then liat profile salah satu temen di milwaukee jaman dulu....
trus baru sadar kalo dia udah ga ada...
padahal belom lama kayanya suka ngobrol lewat icq (yes, icq!)...
trus kalo jumat malem suka ketemuan di UWM's court....
itu jaman anak2 suka maen basket dari jam 10 malem ampe 3 pagi...
he was there....most of the time...
i also remembered pernah nebeng dia ke purdue, indiana...gara2 ada purdue cup....i was in my first semester back then...
inget banget dia ngantuk trus musti nenggak pil kafein...waktu dia lagi nenggak pil itu gua yang pegangin setir mobilnya...ehehehhe....

dia uda married, has one baby boy. he lived a happy life, until God brought him home around Feb 2007.

he was adorable. he was nice.
it was nice knowing someone like you, man!

have a peaceful rest.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

lalu what's up with me?


lalu lalu...trus trus....
biasanya si dikomplain kalo lagi in the middle of ngobrol bilang gitu...hehehhe...

half of today didn't go very well...lagi bad mood gitu maksudnya...
sampe mau ke buaran aja masih mumet rasanya...
then, jalan ke buaran ngebuuuuutt...karena mau kasih name card....berlomba dengan waktu....
durutrutrut....terereretttt....

then, tibalah gua di buaran...eeehh....kudu ngecek settingan and aslinya....
ngecek deh gua....few details ada yang salah....trus cabut de...bawa foto copy settingan...minta clientnya aja yang cek lagi sendiri and paraf kalo uda selesai...gua ga mau disalahin dong...ehuehue....

then, i was off to gading....ngebut lagi...since udah telat...janji jam 4 sampe sana jam 5 kurang....
serahin the name card...trus cabut....ngebut lagi ke cawang...
prayed hard supaya ga macet....God heard my prayer....thanks to God....fiuhh...jalanan gading-cawang ga macet...ehehhe....lega...
sampe rumah jam setengah 6 kurang...eheuhue...

gara2 ga macet my mood okay banget sampe sekarang....seratus delapan puluh derajat berubah....jadi happy...hehehe...
kayanya i need to go out of the house deh...ga bisa setiap hari di dalem rumah doang....lama2 jadi cranky!parah!

sekarang...here i am.....
iseng doang...ehuehueeh....
btw, my little niece wake up....mewek....i love her....lucu...ehuehuehue....

Everything by Michael Buble


This is my favorite song at the moment....take a look at the chorus....simple and beautiful....
I love you Mr. Buble!!!!!!!!
Lyrics courtesy of www.lyricsmode.com.

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.

You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play you're coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Monday, May 07, 2007

tiada judul ....


lagi ngerasa apa ya?
ga jelas...kecewa kali ya...ama diri sendiri...

lagi mikir apa ya?
ini lebih ga jelas lagi...lately, i dont know me...
ga tau apa yang lagi dipikirin...
i haven't get in touch with my self for quite a while...

ga tau maunya apa?
kalo boleh milih buat pergi jauh sih i'd rather do that daripada being here...

so what's up?
nothing really, it's just me and my empty mind...

i wish i could done things differently...really...
as of now, i feel alone...sendiri....mungkin it's the best thing kali ya....gua emang kudu sendiri...mikir...bener2 mikir...
jangan korbanin hati orang lain lagi...jangan...
kalo boleh diganti....gua mau kok gantiin....bener....

yah...ga ada artinya bolak balik liat ke belakang...everything's been said and done...ga ada yg bisa ditarik balik, ga ada yang bisa diganti....

cuma sekarang musti mikir gimana cara memperbaiki semua ini...

Sunday, May 06, 2007

if i could ...

if i could turn back time, i would ....
if i could just died, i would ...

argh...

Friday, May 04, 2007

it's official....

i have no life...
haiyaaakkk!
not sure what i would like to write...
not sure what i feel...
not sure what i wanna do today...
not sure if i wanna be with someone else today...
hehehehe....
gedubrak!

and yes....i have no life today....
du du du du du *jalan tangan ke belakang sambil dongak2 liatin langit mendung*

Thursday, May 03, 2007

the cold smell of ice ....


thanks for reminding me of the ice...
thanks for keep me running on the ice...
thanks for returning that old feeling...

happy....